pureevull

I've been drowning myself in work lately as opposed to drowning myself in a bottle. The plus side is my boss could not be happier. I need to keep myself busy or I will just dwell on what all I can call is The biggest mistake in my life. I use a tennis ball as a "Stress" ball and one of the guys at work watched me rip it in half today. I wish I could go back to being an emotionless automaton.