I did something very stupid today.... I looked at my ex's Facebook profile... DOH! Bad Punx, very bad Punx!
Hadn't done this in a good few months, was doing so well :/ Last time I looked she didn't have any actual photo's of herself, but this time she did and well seeing her face even in a photo really hit me hard, just kinda set everything off again in my mind, haven't spoken to her in over a year and half at this point and it still completely tears me apart. She had gotten her haircut in the exact style I had previously suggested that would suit her too.
To make things worse I even looked over a few old pictures of us I've got saved, forgotten just how happy I looked with her, a level of happyness I haven't achieved since. The other thing the photo's show is that she did genuinely love, even though she would deny she ever did now.
Have a look for yourselves and tell if I'm wrong.
Not that I can do anything, she made abundantly clear she never wants to hear from me ever again, even though she's the one who left me for someone else, betrayed my trust and probably had an affair with him. Really wish I could speak to her just to try and work some of my issues out.
