pulloffmywings

"If Only"

if only i weren't so naive
i would understand.
if only i weren't so gullible
i would give up the lies.
if only i weren't so shy
i would tell you how i feel.
if only i weren't so blind
i would give up my disguise.
if only you wreen't so beautiful
i would turn my gaze away.
if only you weren't so confused
you would have asked me to stay.
if only you weren't so desperate
you would open your eyes and see.
if only you weren't so perfect,
you'd realize you are me.

*poem for marshall, wow, i have so many... i wrote this one last month... speaking of my boy toy....

i saw him today at the supermarket again. i went through his line, and when he was checkin out the lady in front of me, he looks at me, looks at my basket of food, and yells "YAAAY she gets to eat AGAIN!" hehe, such a dork. i love it. i made a note to give to him, but i am really a lil chicken shit so i didn't give it to him. *sigh* i have this wish in the back of my head that valentines day he'll show up at my house with flowers.... you know, every hopeless romatic girls' dream. moving on....

i turned in my SG app last night!! *crosses her fingers* i hope i get it. i want it so much it almost hurts. i don't know, somehow i think that if they DO pick me, it'll be becuz i'm from ND, not becuz i'm pretty enough. damned low self esteem, thought i grew out of it in high school....

now for my daily song lyrics:

And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our soul.
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How everything still turns to gold.
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last.
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll.

we all know where that's from... proven to be the best put together song EVER. been listening to it on repeat today.

ok, QUESTION OF THE DAY: What is your favorite song of ALL time? one that you could listen to on repeat for the rest of your life?

i think mine is "stairway to heaven"

edited for a pice of info: no more worrying for me.......... APP WAS REJECTED. note to self..... maybe send in better pics next time...... *sigh*