in my phone cam pics folder you will find a picture of my new nipple decorations. my boobs are so shiny now. this makes me happy. gives me something to take care of and gives me a good excuse to pay an undue amount of attention to my boobs. i've been so annoying lately, i'm acting like a needy little bastard and wish like hell...
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atomicant:
fuck yo dad.
so i went a little crazy...again. i spent the last five days in the psych unit for depression/detox. i'm back on the antidepressants again. and have a new shrink, therapist and a date with an AA meeting on friday. it's good to be out in the light of day again. i had run myself down so thoroughly that i spent a good day solid asleep...
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prockgirlscout:
Bipolar sucks dick. Except for the manic part. I like that part. 
I am so glad you're ok. You are a fucking amazing girl and I hope you find a way to maintain just the right amount of crazy. And if you do, let me know.
I am so glad you're ok. You are a fucking amazing girl and I hope you find a way to maintain just the right amount of crazy. And if you do, let me know.
bepps:
Managing manic depressive dissorder has always been pretty easy for me. I just focus on how i'd look to someone else and when I feel excited I just tell myself to calm down. Whenever I feel down I just say "ok, there's a problem here. Next" and stop doing anything that is making me feel down. If it's thinking about something inparticular then I concentrate on something entirely different. It works really well. The key is just recognizing that you're not feeling normal and adapting to it.The better you can adapt to your changing moods the better you can put yourself into a more normal mood.
Without drugs.
Without drugs.
i'm back, and maybe if you play nice i'll tell you where i've been.
well kids i think it's going to be a while...in the mean time i wish you all the best.
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unique3:
you've got a great smile!
zetamale:
You'll definitely be missed in the meantime.
i should write something really relevant here, but nothing is going on and i'm just sitting in my underwear drinking and eating frito pie. i'm starting to notice i give up on things all the time. my level of non-follow through is astounding. even the things i want really bad i toss aside like they don't matter. i get distracted and my ability to multitask...
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rizzmatico:
i'm in a very similar place especially with 2 and 4 though i dont really want to do nails. but i do want a better more creative job like i had. this one pays way more but i think its killed my inner child 
i for some reason think i need to destroy my idea of my self and start over, write down the good and get rid of the rest, it wont be easy. thats why i think in a year i'm going to move to italy for at least a year and see how it goes there. i figure i might as well start with a clean slate. and if things go horribly wrong i always have family there. anyways i digress, i wish you good luck with finding the dream and it seems like you've taken a good step in writing it down, thats important in these things, people dont realize the value of writing things down and looking at them every day till you accomplish them. 
i for some reason think i need to destroy my idea of my self and start over, write down the good and get rid of the rest, it wont be easy. thats why i think in a year i'm going to move to italy for at least a year and see how it goes there. i figure i might as well start with a clean slate. and if things go horribly wrong i always have family there. anyways i digress, i wish you good luck with finding the dream and it seems like you've taken a good step in writing it down, thats important in these things, people dont realize the value of writing things down and looking at them every day till you accomplish them. so i took a shower at five thirty this evening. i sat around in a towel on the floor of the bathroom and talked to my mom on speakerphone for about half an hour. called her because i had a weird anxiety attack and felt/feel all fucked up. leave it to mim to say the exact words i did not want to hear right now,...
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rizzmatico:
whoa where does one meet girls that aren't flaky? cause thats all that i can seem to find, actually everyone is where are there people that aren't flaky
atomicant:
something.
i woke up this morning and felt like i was going to die. this is the worst hangover i've had since the wandering incident of 06. i've been walking around and yelling fo no good reason, no cute dinosaur noises, just unfiltered frustration. my neighbors must think i am insane. there are only two people in my life that understand the state i'm in and...
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atomicant:
um. no please?
that would make the baby jeebus cry.
that would make the baby jeebus cry.
bepps:
I did, huh? What'd I miss? There was absolutely no way in hell I could have continued. I totally died. And I feel like I literally did today.
trying...
grady31:
Glad to hear it...........Keep up the good work......
vampirate:
FTR: Therapy totally never worked for me.
fresh out of the shower and i still feel scummy and shit. cinnamint lip balm rocks and makes my mouth all tingly. it appears that my "break hand or pie" philosophy is making a strong come back. that is good and bad. in this instance it means that i can smash everything i want in a vain attempt to get out of the middle (break...
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atomicant:
no, what is standing in your way?
prockgirlscout:
That's very sweet of you to say. Frankly, I wish I had more of a filter. You should see the things I don't say! (If you accept my friend request you will because of my unsaid thread) I love your quote up there. I'm trying to remember what movie it's from. 
no
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atomicant:
crazy like a fox maybe.
atomicant:
it would be a short list.