pudding

so much bullshit going on right now, and it is all unessesary . my head feels like its going to cave in from lack of honest to god sleep. my tiny body can not function on the two extremes i have put it through: either sleeping way too much or far too little. i feel a breakdown coming on. the thing that it seemed was meant to be, is slipping away ,everything happens for a reason and some things are more than just chance. i firmly belive that somtimes life puts things in front of you and practically begs you to take them because you deserve happiness. and he was letting me in and now he's pushing me out. people shouldn't waste the opportunity to be genuinely happy, because that is the stuff you will remember no matter how much bullshit you go though in your life.