pudding

in theory it should be difficult to be fighting with someone is your not-boyfriend. in theory i should no longer have enough invested in him to want to fight about anything. but i do have an investment, he still acts like my boyfriend in all ways, and prior to becoming my not boyfriend he was my boyfriend for 4 years. this not boyfriend thing is ridiculous. one of the girls i work with says that i give it up too easy, why should he commit to me when i've escentially told him he could get all the same benefits without the commitment. lately he has been acting like fucking prince charming which i guess makes the fact that he has fucked up all the more agrivating. so, i am left here in my apartment alone for another evening, with a vanilla vodka and coke in one hand and my remote in the other.