pudding

i want normal relationships. i want open communication. i want to say exactly what i mean and have that be okay. argh. today someone asked when i was going to have kids, they might as well have punched me for as surprised as i was by the question. seriously, i was blindsided. i was stunned enough that my answer was irrelevant. i felt like my...
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just another night...damn

i got up a little early for work so i guess now is a good time to update. i got promoted yesterday, but not to the position in produce i had been talking about. they would like me to go to scan (changing price tags and shit). this also means my hours will change, i will once again be a person of the night working...
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it was brought to my attention, by one of my managers that i was firmly convinced didn't like me worth a damn, that there is a position opening in produce and he recommended me for it. this would mean i would be promoted, which would kick ass. so i'm suposed to talk to the head of the produce department tomorrow to make sure he knows...
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i'm hungry but i'm supposed to be getting food later with a friend. ugh. slept all damn day, no productivity here. therapy was canceled this morning i guess my therapist has the stomach flu or something. made a kick ass breakfast for myself. need a shower but i don't really feel like it. dirty kid. didn't bother to take off last night's makeup.

i guess thats about it for now. more tomorrow.

dear zombie jesus,

the celebration of you reanimation is making things very hectic at work. please make it stop.

-tl

in an interesting turn of events joe has decided that he is going to fly out to missouri for a week. he does that on the 27th of this month. awesome. a week with the house all to myself, what ever will i do? oh yeah, the same damn thing i do now. jesus. and i'm in the middle of watching say anything and i...
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kicking my ass. another night home alone and drinking. good for me. made a cheap homemade version of pork fried rice which rocks. i had a lot more to say earlier this afternoon, not so much right now.

went to therapy this morning, it was a trip as always. sometimes it's rough hearing what someone on the outside of the situation has to say. at least i didn't cry like last time. still homesick as fuck though. saw my shrink today as well, that went well. if my emotional state stays the same/improves i won't have to see him for another month. awesome....
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august appears to be the answer to one of the many question marks looming over my head right now. i will most likely move back home in late july/early august. my brother is leaving for college then and my mom has been looking to move (hopefully out of knob noster) and i know i could live with her. that is also when joe gets back...
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