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i have a raging headache... i got in touch witht he lady that draws those robots that i am wanting to turn into a sleeve and chest piece, her name is Lynette May and she is just an absolutely wonderful artist. anyway, i asked her if is would be possible to get a tattoo custom drawn by her, and she said yes!!!! so i am...
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just rolled out of bed. oh sometimes i hate my lack of motivaion. i miss my drugs, because while there is no more fog, i can practically hear my seratonin levels dropping. and i've been an emotional trainwreck, but that is secondary really. had to work in the section of the pant they call ecoat last night, took drawers off the damn monorail for 4...
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day two without the drugs and i'm not sleeping, great side effect, no? i'm thinking about dyeing my faux-hawk some wacky ass color, just for variety. i think i'm getting sick, i'm terribly congested. work is going well, except there is this guy on our line who has the work ethic of a snail, and sometimes that pisses me off....and he has a rat tail,...
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i'm not going to take my meds for a while, i don't want to, i don't feel like they are doing any good. it's day one without the drugs and i feel like the fog is lifting, seriously everything looks clearer. i have an apt. to get the tattoo on my right shoulder finished on tuesday, which means that when i get paid next i...
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slept the day away again today, must stop making a habit out of that. Huck's roomate is moving out in a couple weeks. shub and clint moved into their new house today. amy is moving to kansas city in november. everyone is moving. except for me, i'm staying here.

so i am thinking about making some changes in this little life of mine. i really want off of my medications for my bipolar disorder and am going to take it up with my shrink the next time i see him, which i think is the middle of next month. i don't think they work, and if they don't work, or just sedate me then...
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this is a memo to those in this world that may kiss my ass:

...my boss Mike, for moving me and nate off line 4 last night and on to a small intermediate line where i worked next to a guy with a mullet all night and assembled metal boxes for seven fucking hours at an impossibly slow rate of speed, which they actually called...
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i kicked ass at work last night, i spent two hours tacking fronts and tacked 181 in the first hour and 209 in the second hour, standard is 150. i finally feel like i am accomplishing something at work, at least i can look over at a rack full of drawers ( my line makes drawers for tool boxes ) and see that i helped...
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half an hour til i leave for my first day of work. nervous. it's my first day and they start us out with overtime, nice. but since it's sunday it's double pay, so you can't bitch too much about that on your first day. i bet this new sleeping schedule is going to kick my ass, caffine addiction is right around the bend. and to...
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looking forward to my first day of work on sunday, turned in my shirt and picked up my last paycheck from subway. i guess three of the new girls that had gotten hired not a week or so before got fired today, the manager was feeling a bit emotional. lovely. trying to stay up until the wee hours of the morning is hard, i am...
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i got that job at tht manufacturing plant and promptly quit subway, fuck those guys. the new job pays twice as much anyway. i'll be a third shift worker for the first time in my life, i guess this means i can really let my inner self out. everyone tells me that third shift is much more casual than first or second shift. my buddy...
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