i wonder if i changed the course of someone's life today by just being my awkward loser-ass self. stranger things have happened, i have cleaned every room in the house except for those that belong to me. the public does not need to see my bathroom anyway. our cat had fleas and to make a long story short grossness ensued and the vet is charging...
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so i'm sitting here drinking and sweating my ass off. so sick of school, seriously, the whole situation can kiss my ass. had a wonderful self realization today, i don't see myself as being as womanly as my peers. that is not to say that i am not a woman in the strictly physical sense, but rather that i see myself as more of a...
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foi:
yeah, i'm still wondering when maturity will set in for me ...
jay_blank:
Well, it'll come with experience and age. I'm 32 and am just now beginning to feel comfortable being a 'man'. Don't get me wrong, I still have boyish tendencies, but I'm starting to take myself more seriously.
My advice, be whoever you are. Girl, woman or whatever. Enjoy being 21 and don't worry about how old/young you feel!
My advice, be whoever you are. Girl, woman or whatever. Enjoy being 21 and don't worry about how old/young you feel!
pictures of my new mohawk in my pics folder
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phoenixgirl:
WOW!!!!! 
3am:
Nice!
i've been so headache prone lately, i'm popping tylenol every four hours on the dot. hung out with rachel today, that was super nice. she gave me socks and a really cute coin purse, i gave her a book that i liked and thought she would enjoy. she is the first person from around here that has actually come over to the house, we have...
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phoenixgirl:
Try Advil instead, it works really well for me.
since monday i have been in the loony bin . yeah, i don't really know what to say aside from hello again.
jay_blank:
wow! are you ok??
i lose patience with my mental health every so often. i'm in the middle of a breakdown, i knew it was coming, it a weird thing and you can just feel it. i've always wondered how people stay so chill and collected when it's all i can do to sit still and not yell and throw shit most of the time. my head is floating...
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jay_blank:
Yep, depression and anxiety here too... I went to a therapist for the first time on Wed. Maybe you need to see someone new? If you've been going to this one for awhile and they are not really helping, maybe it's time to shake it up a bit...
Hang in there kiddo. Feel free to message me anytime you want to vent, cry etc. It might help you feel better to release some of that frustration....
Hang in there kiddo. Feel free to message me anytime you want to vent, cry etc. It might help you feel better to release some of that frustration....
3am:
I hope you find the answer to you problem. Life shouldn't have to be so difficult. If it helps you vent, you can throw something at me ... not in the face though.
need a shower. think i'm going to do my hair again. got new bras in the mail, my boobs are happier now. i'm emotionally retarded right now and am resisting the urge to spend money. there is a deffinate difference between teachers and instructors, finding that out the hard way. called casey, he made me happy for a little while. talked to mom. i want...
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got my septum redone. changed the jewlery in my ears. school sucks. my feet smell bad.
crymson:
What did you put in your ears? and wash your feet if the smell bad. 
Love, hugs and kisses to you.
Love, hugs and kisses to you.
jay_blank:
I give you credit on the septum! That's hardcore.
About the feet thing...maybe it's time for a pedi? Scrape off the dead skin, lotion up etc. Treat yourself!
About the feet thing...maybe it's time for a pedi? Scrape off the dead skin, lotion up etc. Treat yourself!
today was endlessly frustrating. i accidentally put the bills in what i thought was a mail drop-box and it infact was not for the mail. it is a cruel trick to have a large metal box with a drop-slot attatched to the row of mailboxes when it is not an official mail drop off point. cruel i say! what really did it for me was...
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jay_blank:
Shit! Fuck the bills...I'd be more worried about the Netflix! So, what kind of box was it? Is it a Quest Diagnostics box for people to toss their samples in or something?
callahan:
Coffee is the nectar of the gods; tiramasu their ambrosia.
i haven't been to school since wednesday. i was so pissed that i skipped out durring lunch, i hate my instructors, they don't communicate with each other so i've got one telling to do thing a. while another gives me a list of things b.-g. they are retarded i swear. that is the simplified version of what i was pissed about. at any rate i...
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jay_blank:
"i spend most of my nights like that. does that do anything for ya? "
yes, yes it does. I had chinese yesterday. Beef and broccoli with an egg roll. The place across the street knows it as the Jay Special.
yes, yes it does. I had chinese yesterday. Beef and broccoli with an egg roll. The place across the street knows it as the Jay Special.
callahan:
Someone needs to get to the bottom of how life can go so crazy on a person so quickly. That shit pisses me off.
been caught in a string of bad days lately. today it was capped off with a set of pink and white nail extensions. and the coffin was shut. i can hardly manage a standard extension, no fucking wonder i can't do the more difficult version of the same thing. the logic is baffling. joe comes home tomorrow morning. it's funny that when you hide away...
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jay_blank:
Hang in there sweetness. "Fuck that in the ass"....I laughed out loud. That rocked.
Eventually the law of averages demands you'll have a string of awesome days! Just maintain and ride the crest until then....
luv ya!
Eventually the law of averages demands you'll have a string of awesome days! Just maintain and ride the crest until then....
luv ya!
franie:
Hope you feel better.
the nail expo is tomorrow, i aranged it so i don't have to get up early. this week has been rough, school is highly demanding and i feel a ton of pressure to do well. sometimes i feel like shit because my instructor showers me with praise and all i can think about is either how i could have done better or repressing my urges...
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deadus:
thanx you
have a good weekend
have a good weekend
callahan:
I saw your pics man. They were pretty good. I think you could definately pull off sg if you worked at it.
have i introduced myself yet? i keep meaning to but i can't remember. in either case...hi.
That said, I'd totally spend that on my cat. I love her. Pets are better than humans.