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Well what do you do when your friends stop talking to? You bus them in from out of state. Considering all thats happend resently I just need someone to talk to. The one person in this state who is speaking to me (why i still have no clue) i don't want to speak to. The only person i can think of would lose her baby if I tried talking to her and last time i did that my mouth got wierd at the end and ran off on its on so its my guess i should just leave well alone be. Man i keep on fucking things up.

So in light of that and the spree of selfmedicating behavior patterns to keep depression at bay i called in a favor (which i'm sure has been repaid). I'm busing my friend sarah from michigan up here after work i pick her up at the train station. Tommorow i head to my hearing or whatever and can begin assessing the damage. Afterwords i'm mission imposible style braking into a hospital to steal some goods. Did i say steal i mean espionage... corporate espionage...really! Perhaps spending a night outside of my head will do me some good...cough