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Man yesterday i was all gung-ho about fighting this thing. If i can get certain actions repealled i could try and fix things. But this mourning i wake up and i realize somethings are better off left untouched by hand. In my heart i know what will happen...i'm just so surprised those two can't see it yet there perfect for each other. So i know in my heart my role in this is to stay as far away as I can. forget the dvds forget the nail clipers forget trying to say goodbye one last time...forget i ever happend to her with time. Move on....no thanks no point. The worst part about this is blaming it on a medical condition. I can controll myself, and believe it or not a strong strong part of me is constant termoil. I'd never hurt someone unless they harmed someone i cared about. Unfortinatly saying i lost my temper is outta bounds with me. I was worked up and upset. I've never had to spank her twice let alone repeatidly to get a point accross. I didn't use an excessive amount of force....I just fucked up is all. Hehh i'm not her dad and i never desirved to be her boyfriend. Doesn't matter now does it!