psynapse

-big blacks "atomizer" album is the shit.
-i am going to the porn store later tonight to get a dvd, although i don't know which one yet.
-i'm thinking naughty thoughts right now.
-there is a thick coating of dust on almost every object in my house.
-i got a ticket this morning because my state inspection sticker expired in january.
-i'm going to eat...
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i'm tired of people not listening. i'm tired of that confused face people make right after i finish saying something. i'm tired of talking out loud when i'm all alone. i'm tired of being all alone.

i'm tired of people not listening. i'm tired of that confused face people make right after i finish saying something. i'm tired of talking out loud when i'm all alone. i'm tired of being all alone.

one of our regular customers came into the shop i work at today. this guy, pedro, hadn't been in in awhile, because for the winter he goes back to his home country (i think it's peru). so i'm on the phone with someone, and he says to my boss (who is standing literally 6 inches away from me) "what happened to brian? he's so fat...
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i was all set to write an interesting journal. but now, i don't even remember what i had to say. i think maybe thoughts only exist in my mind as abstract concepts that only i can understand. once i try to translate them into words, they make no sense, they change their meaning, they do not get down, to the heart of the matter (singing)....
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i think i'm starting to feel blood trickling from my ears. is this a sign of the good fortune that surely must be headed my way? hold your breath, for this opprotunity will knock me out cold.

we both need to fight the image we have of ourselves drowning. it gets us nowhere in these hour-long days.

...C...A...P...S...
CAPS!
CAPS!
CAPS!

washington capitals hockey, motherfucker.

rest your head upon the pillow, dear
the activity portion of the show is over.
the only thing left is to sleep.

today is the worst god damn day of the year. i hate that my entire sleep schedule is thrown totally out of whack cause some hillbilly farmers need and extra hour with which to make money. we are actually ALTERING TIME for these people!!! does anyone else have a problem with this??? why don't we just add in an eighth day in the week, so...
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i think i'm out of things to say. who's reading this anyway? what's the point of putting a journal online? a journal should be a private thing, putting it out in public is just a feeble attempt to gain recognition through "interesting thoughts". i write things for myself, not so *you* can read them and think highly of me. trust me, my ego won't be...
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this is total, and complete, bullshit.