psychofilly

Have you ever had one of those days where you wake up in the morning and everything in your life starts to make sense, even though your life feels totally upside down to you. And you can literally just stand there and look at yourself in the mirror and just know what you want to do and say for the actual first time in your life.
Like it doesn't matter who it is going to end up affecting or if people are going to ask you a million and one questions about why you're doing what you're doing and why you're saying what you're saying because for the first time in your life you're doing and saying the things you want to do and you want to say. Instead of always standing there and going along with other people's thoughts and actions to make life less stressful and easiar on you and the people involved in it.
All because you just know that when it's all said and done you'll be happy for the first time in your life. The only thing that crosses your mind is that you wish you'd thought of it sooner, and you wonder how different your life would be if you always put yourself first and never thought about how anything you did would affect anyone else.
Although i think it's safe to say you can't go through your entire life like that because you would never get to wake up and have that day. That day that makes you say to yourself why did i do all those things that way, why did i never stop and ask myself a million and one questions. Maybe it's because it was just easiar to say and do what was expected even if it meant you weren't being true to yourself.
I just had one of those days today and it made me realize that no matter how shitty and unhappy i feel i did it to myself and the only way to fix how i feel is me. It's me deciding that i need to do things for me and look out for me because in the end you're the only person in your life that can ruin your life. You have to stand up and make decions based on what you need and want at that time in your life.
I'm not saying never take anyone's feelings into account but sometimes you're going to have to make a decision that truly will make or break how you go through life and it may bother someone close to you, but if they truly care about you they will realize that all you did was choose what was best for you at that moment in time.

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I couldn't sleep last night. My mind just kept thinking and wouldn't shut down. And then I got to thinking about what happened to snails during winter...

Snails living in cold climates hibernate through the winter with shells intact. In fact, they typically retract into their shells and seal the opening with either a hard "lid" or a slime membrane that helps protect them from predators and the cold.

For hibernation, they typically seek holes in the ground they may burrow these holes themselves or use holes left behind by other animals, like snakes or rodents. (In other words, the shell is not much of a hindrance.) They may also hide themselves in piles of dead leaves, under rocks and pavement tiles, or in holes in walls. If given enough time to adapt, snails can alter their bodies to withstand very low temperatures and don't require too much cover.

Thank you Wikipedia for helping me sleep.