Holy Shit. If any of you haven't read killary's post in her blog, you should. Go there appreciate the shear quality of the message, the raw emotional rage. Then send her some love, cause she sounds like she could use a hug, or a drink, or an automatic weapon. Reminds me of me. There was a time not to long ago that I referred to women as lying, cheating whores that served one purpose. Unfortunately I couldn't stand the sight of any of them long enough to fufill that purpose. OH and I said that they should be kept in cages. I must have set a guiness record for pairing the words "dirty" "lying" and "cunt" in the same sentence. As you can tell trust is a bit of an issue. So heres some back story.
I have been cheated on by almost every girl I've dated. I have lent a girl change so she can use the payphone at a bar, so she can phone her boyfriend in the very same bar to break up with him, and go home with someone else "guilt free". I have had a friend bitch about a guy she was dating AS she was undoing my pants. Same friend lied about another guy she was seeing while we were fucking on a steady basis because she knew I would stop sleeping with her if I knew she was with someone else. I had a girlfriend tell me I ll do until someone better comes along, and then we ll make an arrangement. Same girl, wanted to move in with me after she had a new boyfriend, but nobody cared for her like i did. I had a girlfriend flat out tell me she was going out to fuck one of her friends.
Same girl, told me she was pregnant, didn't want me or the baby. So I got to watch her get sick every morning for 13 weeks at work, and lie to everyone. Only to have her come back a week after the abortion to tell me how much she loved me. My ex fiance, tells me she doesn't love me anymore, two months before the wedding, but doesn't know why. Yeah well then she should have erased the photos of her and the 3 unknown males taken over a period of a month before I was told to leave. Same woman drives 500km out of her way after not talking for three years, just to tell me how much she misses me, and thinks she made a mistake. Forgot to tell me the name of her boyfriend, or that she even had one. Found that out from her sister a week later. Doubt she told him whos bed she was sharing the weekend previous.
And finally the last one delivered the classic, "why won't you marry me, just because I fucked him doesn't mean I don't love you". The "him" was one of 3 guys I knew about, and I guess she didn't like my response of "because you're a junky whore", because she started fucking a guy at work a day later. Oh darn, I guess I screwed my chance for happiness, boo hoo.
So I guess I don't have a lot of faith left with the female of the species, but I can recognize that there are good women out there. I try not to mistrust every girl im with and give them the benefit. But after losing two children in 3 years, i honestly don't think I have much left in me. So a smile from a pretty girl, a nice conversation over coffee, the mere company of someone I find pleasant. These are all cherished because I know it's not likely to go beyond just that. I do miss giving flowers though, I always liked the reaction i got.
Until next time SG land.
I have been cheated on by almost every girl I've dated. I have lent a girl change so she can use the payphone at a bar, so she can phone her boyfriend in the very same bar to break up with him, and go home with someone else "guilt free". I have had a friend bitch about a guy she was dating AS she was undoing my pants. Same friend lied about another guy she was seeing while we were fucking on a steady basis because she knew I would stop sleeping with her if I knew she was with someone else. I had a girlfriend tell me I ll do until someone better comes along, and then we ll make an arrangement. Same girl, wanted to move in with me after she had a new boyfriend, but nobody cared for her like i did. I had a girlfriend flat out tell me she was going out to fuck one of her friends.
Same girl, told me she was pregnant, didn't want me or the baby. So I got to watch her get sick every morning for 13 weeks at work, and lie to everyone. Only to have her come back a week after the abortion to tell me how much she loved me. My ex fiance, tells me she doesn't love me anymore, two months before the wedding, but doesn't know why. Yeah well then she should have erased the photos of her and the 3 unknown males taken over a period of a month before I was told to leave. Same woman drives 500km out of her way after not talking for three years, just to tell me how much she misses me, and thinks she made a mistake. Forgot to tell me the name of her boyfriend, or that she even had one. Found that out from her sister a week later. Doubt she told him whos bed she was sharing the weekend previous.
And finally the last one delivered the classic, "why won't you marry me, just because I fucked him doesn't mean I don't love you". The "him" was one of 3 guys I knew about, and I guess she didn't like my response of "because you're a junky whore", because she started fucking a guy at work a day later. Oh darn, I guess I screwed my chance for happiness, boo hoo.
So I guess I don't have a lot of faith left with the female of the species, but I can recognize that there are good women out there. I try not to mistrust every girl im with and give them the benefit. But after losing two children in 3 years, i honestly don't think I have much left in me. So a smile from a pretty girl, a nice conversation over coffee, the mere company of someone I find pleasant. These are all cherished because I know it's not likely to go beyond just that. I do miss giving flowers though, I always liked the reaction i got.
Until next time SG land.
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lolablu:
I think people can just be shitty. I don't think there's much of a gender gap in that one. I've certainly been hurt by people I've dated, or had my trust betrayed by friends or family. It's about learning what you can reasonably expect from individual people and deciding whether what you get from the relationship is fulfilling enough. There are many people who don't deserve to be trusted, but I have to believe there are some people out there who do, even when I don't have much luck in finding them.
zombiekittybot:
that I am...I'm a lil shorter than 5'1 and about 120 lbs ha