psychicgoldfish

I wish I coulda seen the nutcracker performance featuring my first crush.

Yeah, the guy who in 9th grade gave me my first and only dose of amorous rejection thus far.

That 6 foot 3 adonis with very little ballet experience in tights and prancing.

There is no amount of currancy that that would be worth.

It's not even so much about public humiliation or revenge.

Revenge was covered when I morphed out of my awkward phase as no one was looking.

I just think it would be cool to see him acting and showing enthusiasm.

I have a thing for the male cynic, see.

It's one of those daddy issues things, now that I think about it....

And to imagine my perfect male cynic.... PRANCING. oh wow.

Novelty.

Something about that guy. See him around now and again and still think he is oh so amazing.

I am over it and all. He just posessed and still posesses qualities that- I can't help it- I just... LIKE.

Is it wrong that THE BOY was the guy who is sometimes confused with ballet boy by various people in our tiny little community?

They even have the same first name.

How sick am I?