prudence

i DEFINITELY feel so much better today; i'm sure getting 10 hours of sleep helped a lot. really, though, i think i've just been feeling overwhelmed lately. for someone with 'no social life,' i'm pretty damned social! everyone i know keeps calling me, emailing me, AIMing me, etc., and i'm one of those people that wants to make everyone happy and make sure i don't hurt anyone's feelings, then nothing i need to do gets done and i end up feeling so stressed out that i kind of shut down- and get really depressed. maybe i just need to not answer the phone or my emails for a couple of days, and just pay attention to the things in my life that are really important to me.

so, the other day when i said, 'look away, i'm hideous,' i was really just making a reference to a seinfeld episode...but, really, when i'm in a bad mood i feel like i don't want nobody lookin' at me; i feel like hiding. so the other day i suddenly became VERY aware that i had a picture of me posted up here, and a provacative one at that! so, i started feeling really exposed and vulnerable and self-conscious. i'm all better now, though, so look all you want. stare, jerk-off, shout insults at my picture- i'm all yours.

this weekend i think we're gonna go to children's fairyland in oakland. that should be fun. i haven't been there since i was little...

right now, though, i think i'm gonna put on some Go-Go's and dance around my living room. i hope the downstairs neighbors don't mind!