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So my visit today to the doctor went... well.... ok. She didn't do anything procedure wise, which was nice in a way but not nice because it means I am still bleeding. Basically all my choices and all the possibilities suck equally. So now I have to do some thinking and decide what is the lesser of the sucky choices and decide if I want to deal with the suckiness it will entail. Which means having a completely open hearted and emotional conversation with my hunny about what we really want to do in the next year or so about having a baby or not. Which is going to be hard because hunny works on a time schedule that is from another planet. Hunny is so go with the flow and deal with things as they come instead of planning. I am so anal and planning happy it makes me sick sometimes. Opposites attract but when it comes to dealing with this kind of stuff, it makes it really hard!!!! I have a session with my therapist tomorrow afternoon to start to sort through this emotional shit. And I am sure I will have more to say on the subject then. And after I am going to see my hair stylist, which is a therapy unto itself!!!!!