Maybe its because Im getting older but I have the urge to have a baby. So I tell my husband to be I want one and I got shot down right away. He says were not ready but im thinking hes not ready. it makes me sad that im the only one who thinks about starting a family. I would like to have one before im too old to chase after them. and so i have no complications. I feel like im lying when i say i dont want one. i really just want to cry because i feel alone in my baby urge. bah i hope the urge passes. 
