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I'm waiting...I'm trying to be patient in the midst of
forgetting the plan or purpose which brought me to this
point of indecision... it's overwhelming, overbearing like a
fever or a spiderbite, a kiss or a paper cut. I'm losing sun
light as I write this, my requiem...
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kinto:
Indecision sucks! I've been paralyzed by that for years. It would seem that I'm getting somewhere finally now. We'll see.

About the Puppy song, I know what you mean, I think it's quite good for a movie but not as good as we can expect from them. I don't know if it's Marc Walk's fault but I already don't like oGhr much, I hope he's not going to spoil the next SP...!

I've discovered a new "band" (I think the guy is alone)recently, it's called Dsormais and there's 2 albums, "Climate Variations" and "Iambrokenandremadeiambroken". I've been listening to "Climate Variations nonstop, it's impressively fantastic, in the same spirit as zoviet france, o yuki conjugate, etc... You HAVE TO listen to it.
It's a beauty!

Try to take it easy anyway smile

K
pucabul:
Hey, man, what the heck is going on in your life? That journal entry doesn't sound so good. Have you got school, a place to live yet, your mum's doing better? I hope you're alright.
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Classes, classes, classes. I have to pick up more classes
to satisfy the requirements for my pell grant, and the load
begins to grow heavy. I'm not complaining, some people
have a much more difficult time getting any kind of financial
support than I have, and frankly that sickens me.
But, it's still, up till this point, going well enough. My job
promotion...
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So, for my final weekend before school starts, I decided I
would give myself one last evening of excess and self-
destruction before I'm forced into the secular existence of
the monk-like devotion to learning.
I went to this fetish club in Indianapolis. It was a hosted
event at this club known for it's goth-industrial weekends.
My friend Jason and his band Nimbus...
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kinto:
So, what do you think about that SP song?

And you're right, you have to enjoy every chance to have fun because worries expand tenfold when you grow old and fun is harder and harder to get... I am always amazed when I look around me when I'm in clubs/pubs or at gigs. It seems that the people between 25 & 35 have all disappeared, like you're not supposed to live once you're in that faithful age bracket... puke
Most of them are now at home with kids or family, busy forgetting they once were young and non-caring.

There is no way it's going to happen to me anytime soon... Most of my friends grow old fast around me and it's a daily remember of how I DON'T want to become, ever. Party on my friend!

K
vastad:
Sounds like you had a smashing time. Good for you. I start school myself in 2 weeks. Keep on, keeping on.
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I miss you all.
A memory:
Dreaming in hopeless expanse an Oregon sky bends
concave to accept the motion of change, albino phantom
cloud horses passing open the gates of forever, I hear their
galloping as thunder in a distant storm yet my eyes are drawn
to horizons of inevitable dawn...
kinto:
Hey P

I hope things are looking up for you! Any exciting plans for the "virtual" new year that begins (September) ?
I plan to start Tai-Chi because it's been a long, long time since I've started to think that's the only way to calm me down and give me peace of mind (I'm done with alcohol and the whole self-destruction thing, too many years wasted). Also planning to finally start & learn Italian... will see...

Great news:
The first official new Skinny Puppy song in about 10 years, "Optimissed" is featured on the soundtrack of the "Underworld" film, to be released on Sept 3 if I remember well. OK, I couldn't wait and I've got the song from the net. It's brilliant, though I was surprised at first. It's very fitting for a film I think, but not really Puppy-like (or old puppy). But cEvin Key said it was going to be reworked and put on the forthcoming album...

Take care mate

K
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My guitar teacher passed away of a heart attack on the
11th of August.He was 50 years old. His service is today.
He was a kind-hearted, simple soul who was dedicated to
his music and doing what he could to help others express
their vision. He let his light into everyone he met, and he
will be missed by many. He will be missed...
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vastad:
I am sorry to hear that. frown

Best Wishes my friend.

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Interesting idea about keeping records of symbols, but somebody got to it about 80 years before I did. His name is Carl Jung.

And of course there is a broad range of books of dreams and mythology to browse.

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On a related note, I got told by a psychic that one of my gifts is a strong connection to Archetypes.

I still haven't figured out what that means.

***

Be Well.
kinto:
Yep, sorry to hear that too, it's always hard to let people go when they've brought Light in your life. Hopefully he's now in a better place.

I hope you're OK and will leave you with this: (it's translated from French, so it doesn't sound that good but I think it's worth stating here, as you've been through a lot these last months)

"The bigger the misfortune, the braver it is to live"

smile

K
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On Feeling:
I'm not sure I've had a feeling in awhile. I fear that what I
originally may have mistaken for a feeling was really just
the Recollection of a feeling. A sentimental sort of Deja-vu.
When I try to think about how I feel... this is where I believe
the problem began...I can't seem to remember how or where
the...
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katie_:
Sorry you didn't get to go to APC. If it makes you feel any better, the tour dates came out maybe 2 weeks before the first show, so lots of people didn't know. I didn't even know til I saw an ad in the Phoenix and then it was too late to get tickets from Ticketmaster-off to eBay I went. I must say though, I do not feel my money was wasted. The show on Sunday was amazing and I loved the new songs they played. There are live mp3s floating about if you'd like to hear some new stuff. Also- Maynard has been calling this tour a "soundcheck" or a "warmup", and said on Sunday that they'll be touring again right after Thirteenth Step is released next month. I assume it'll be a bigger tour (that is, bigger venues) so maybe we'll both get to see APC for a humane pricesmile
pucabul:
Sorry to hear things aren't going too well, but... as trite as it sounds some text said "This, too, shall pass." Perseverance is a virtue. In time, if you're a feeling person, you'll begin to remember what emotions are and what a grand variety there is. I've found that as hard as it can be for me to deal with the hard times in life, they do make the good ones much sweeter. Unless I'm feeling down and then it just makes them bitter-sweet. wink
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So, since I had a few inquiries into the Bagua journal,I thought
I might elaborate on what I know.The interesting thing about Baguazhang
is it's connection to the eight trigrams.These are most fully expressed in
the I Ching,or book of changes,a classic chinese form of divination that
dates back at least 2000 years.The trigrams, like most Taoist forms...
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pucabul:
Wierd, I think you just related I Ching to the Tarot for me. Same deal: no 'real' answers, it doesn't tell you what to do, but rather it tells you the general sense of what has, is, or shall happen so that your choices may be better guided. For a simplistic example: if you were to draw a card which had as one meaning the entering of a difficult phase of life, it wouldn't be there to say your life will get difficult so much as to suggest that life gets that way sometimes. Further it would probably suggest any number of actions: passivity, let the difficulties pass, action: work to make them pass, solace: take heart in knowing they will pass eventually, etc.
vastad:
I'm glad I helped you get excited about school again.

It's always a chance to make things better and meet new people.
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Baguazhang and the internal martial arts:

For awhile now, as a supplemental to studying Tai-chi, I
have been working with a martial art called Baguazhang.
Bag-gua is different from the other internal martial arts,
(incl. Tai-chi, Hsing-I, and Ba-gua), in one fundamental
sense. Ba-gua is considered a Taoist-Yogic martial art.
Masters of this style appear as coiling, twisting dervishes,
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pucabul:
Been awhile since I heard a peep from ya, so I thought I'd just pop in with a check to see if you're doing alright. You are, right?
kinto:
god what's with all this martial arts thing that's impossible to pronounce?

scary sounds good smile

K
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...And the Epic Saga Continues!... Well, I tried to make payment
arrangement's with the evil foreign power that is my landlord, and
so I have bought myself percious time. Time enough to move my
Mom, who was evicted this week! She part-owns an antique's and
collectibles store, so she has a lot of crap. It takes about two weeks
on average to move...
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chaosmachine:
hey i live in b-town, ecch i hate dealing with land lords, i'm being screwed by my roomate whom is backing out of moving in and screwing me on the lease, i need soeone to live with for a year staring july 30th
ruby:
smile
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Ah, eviction...well, I suppose it's that time of year again; the
natural cycles of employment and unemployment moving like
the tides, towards you, the inevitably away again out to sea.
Lose hours at your job; fall into minor debt with your utilities,
then a well-timed bounded check to round the experience and
the next thing you know, you've got two weeks to...
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cheech:
Hi, prana. Lemme know if you get my email. NEW tape swap...and yes, this one WILL take place. Good luck to you on the home front. wink
kinto:
Gotta check the ohGr stuff then! Seen the vid (without sound... at work) and I am curious. But I was very much disappointed by the Welt album and Ritalin wasn't exactly brilliant either. Such a waste to have Nivek Ogre waste his inimitable voice this way. That's why I can't wait for the new SP, because cEvin Key & him are unique. "Frozen Sky" is one of the best songs ever, eventhough it's not officially labelled SP... it is 100%

'hope you're good,

K
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"...On October 13,1307, King Philip of France's forces descended on all the Templar
preceptories in France. The Pope was dismayed; technically, only he had juristiction
over the Templars. But Philip's force's threatened the Pope, so he quickly went along
with the king. Philip would soon be dismayed as well. Templar spies had gotten wind
of the impending arrests. having commanded a...
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thursday:
eh?
pucabul:
For example, the Rothchilds?
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Yes, grades: I conquered a difficult semester, and drove my
GPA up .58 points. I got an A in Tai Chi, no small feat considering
my accumulated abscences. I think I was one of the highest ranking
students in the class, as well. I've had a great instructor and some
marvelous advice from my friend Zak, whose been studying martial
arts since the tender...
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ingrid:
To me, the Poisonwood Bible was a really eye-opening book, and also a very touching story.. I think I learned more about Kongo's/'Zaire's history, and about Africa's history in general, than I've ever learnt in any schools I've went to! I couldn't stop reading the book.. It both made me a bit ashamed of living in the Western world that has exploited Africa so much, but also I fell more in love with Africa again, and would love to do more things now to help to make this world more fair to people who are living there..
pucabul:
Actually no, you didn't go off the deep end. It's an interesting concept. I've studied eastern philosophy a bit and Taoism seems to be the major force at work in my life (time was I would've said I was an artist by education, a chef by occupation, and a Taoist by inclination). I think alot of eastern thought is closer to the universal truth than western, but it's all part of the same big puzzle. On the vacation I just got back from I ran into three personal works by authors and researchers philosophies that set some of my cosmology on end. Two said the same thing though for different reasons (which was basically that each day is a fresh start and hence life is the future and not the past) and the third was the most scientific and in-depth research I've seen concerning the possiblity of re-incarnation (which was a mind-blowing article). It seems to further my idea that there is something greater than what we know of as the physical world, and possibly that there is some purpose to it all. I think anything that people might purport to be god or religion is a clue. Just as is everything you experience in life. The term guru is often mistaken to mean a wise old man, but it's not. The term has a much braoder meaning which is summed up by the word teacher. Anything that teaches you; a novel, a glance from a stranger, a religious text or experience, absolutely anything is a Guru. I think that opens up a huge range of potential for human growth to those who are observant. I'm actually rather curious about your studies into martial philosophy, for when I studied Shotokan Karate for a short while earlier this year I found that it taught me alot more than fighting techinques, and I look forward to being in a position to study the martials arts and sciences further one day.