so here i am...sittin her, trying to figure out life. my life.....but its just too hot for that type of thinking today, so instead i am strumming the guitar, sitting with friends...and thinking about not thinking about life.
random thoughts:
i am been in such a state of inertia lately....i dont know really why..i do know that i am prone to unexplainable periods of utter depression, i think that i was sinking into on of those, but managed to dig my way out faster than normal..thats good i suppose. anyone have ritlin?? lol
my ex keeps calling me from overseas, and i really dont know what to say...i love her..yes, but i cant be with someone who is more gone than not, and i know she loves me and i know that she knows me..which is a BIG thing BUT i still am not in love with her, or maybe i am but i dont know it..either way....
and i dont think that she is meaning to put a guilt trip on my shoulders, but somehow i always feel that way, cause she is just SOOO damn fuckin understanding. noone is that understanding, or at least not anyone i have ever met.
other random thoughts:
my house needs to be cleaned, i need to mail my bills, i should be doing something other than on my computer writing nosequencal things that i cannot spell correctly, but for the life of me cannot find anything out in the world that tempts me enough to leave. im not much of a people person...i try to be, but its just not me...
enough rambling..other than the question of the week, that hopefully someone will pay enough attention too: if your an almost 24 girl..is it okay to date a 19 year old.?? my friends say yes, but i am very conflicted by this, since a part of me feels the nessecity to be like a "big sister" well, whats going to happen is going to happen, right??
despite age differences...
blah.
blah
random thoughts:
i am been in such a state of inertia lately....i dont know really why..i do know that i am prone to unexplainable periods of utter depression, i think that i was sinking into on of those, but managed to dig my way out faster than normal..thats good i suppose. anyone have ritlin?? lol
my ex keeps calling me from overseas, and i really dont know what to say...i love her..yes, but i cant be with someone who is more gone than not, and i know she loves me and i know that she knows me..which is a BIG thing BUT i still am not in love with her, or maybe i am but i dont know it..either way....
and i dont think that she is meaning to put a guilt trip on my shoulders, but somehow i always feel that way, cause she is just SOOO damn fuckin understanding. noone is that understanding, or at least not anyone i have ever met.
other random thoughts:
my house needs to be cleaned, i need to mail my bills, i should be doing something other than on my computer writing nosequencal things that i cannot spell correctly, but for the life of me cannot find anything out in the world that tempts me enough to leave. im not much of a people person...i try to be, but its just not me...
enough rambling..other than the question of the week, that hopefully someone will pay enough attention too: if your an almost 24 girl..is it okay to date a 19 year old.?? my friends say yes, but i am very conflicted by this, since a part of me feels the nessecity to be like a "big sister" well, whats going to happen is going to happen, right??
despite age differences...
blah.
blah
digdug:
A 5 year difference?!? Don't worry about it, there's absolutely nothing wrong with that. I know a couple, on this site infact, where there is a 12 year difference - and they have been dating for 2 years. If the object of your affection were 17, maybe you could be concerned, but I think at your age, your life experience (wisdom) is not so drastically different from her's that it would really matter. What is your concern anyway? I suspect that your big sister impulses are probably part of who you are and I would bet that this occurs with girls who are not younger than you as well. Maybe I'm wrong, but I say do it. What's the worst that could happen?
