One day, a journal entry won't consist of me bitching about my ex-gf situation. 
It'd be nice if she could pick a consistent tone with me; let's be civil or condescending with some regularity, okay? Mind games I don't need. Don't send me promising job links on one hand and bitch about us talking about me getting a new job on the other, blah blah blah.
I've decided. I will not let myself go on any dates, or anything with a passing resemblance of a date, until I have a new job, though. Not like the gals are beating my door down to begin with, but the tempation to go back on Nerve or OKCupid or whatever (yes, I am a huge loser) and contact someone is very much there.
We'll see how long this lasts before I go insane from lack of female contact. If nothing else, it'll be an interesting self-experiment.
I just hate leaving my job right now, which is within the editing field, just to take something with a higher salary and normal hours that isn't in my field, and will sidetrack my career goals, because my financial situation dictates it. Of course, that's assuming that I would be able to quickly find something with a significantly higher salary in the first place. Well, the higher salary shouldn't be too difficult, ha ha ha.....er. All I want for my birthday in May is a decent new job.
Sometimes I wish I had faith (in the religious sense). I'd love to be a pastor; just without the whole "God" deal. Guess you can't have one without the other, eh? I'm always at my best when I'm able to help someone out; to do things for them. It's not even me being selfless - it's something I do for myself in the end, really. Or want to do. Maybe I should go back to school and become a therapist or so. Bwahahaha, that's rich.
Today's lyrics: Doves - "The Storm." Trite? Yeah, but it makes me feel good right now.
" You weathered the storm
You came out the other side
The place you were born
Is a place inside
Don't be sad it's gone
Don't be sad I'm gone...
To weather the storm
Up on your feet again
If it all comes down
Would you still call this the end?
Don't be sad it's gone
Can't be sad for long
Don't give up be strong
Don't be sad I'm gone
The night you left the storm
To weather it all
To come out the other side
With the moon all high
I'll see you on the other side
So come out the other side"
It'd be nice if she could pick a consistent tone with me; let's be civil or condescending with some regularity, okay? Mind games I don't need. Don't send me promising job links on one hand and bitch about us talking about me getting a new job on the other, blah blah blah.
I've decided. I will not let myself go on any dates, or anything with a passing resemblance of a date, until I have a new job, though. Not like the gals are beating my door down to begin with, but the tempation to go back on Nerve or OKCupid or whatever (yes, I am a huge loser) and contact someone is very much there.
We'll see how long this lasts before I go insane from lack of female contact. If nothing else, it'll be an interesting self-experiment.
I just hate leaving my job right now, which is within the editing field, just to take something with a higher salary and normal hours that isn't in my field, and will sidetrack my career goals, because my financial situation dictates it. Of course, that's assuming that I would be able to quickly find something with a significantly higher salary in the first place. Well, the higher salary shouldn't be too difficult, ha ha ha.....er. All I want for my birthday in May is a decent new job.
Sometimes I wish I had faith (in the religious sense). I'd love to be a pastor; just without the whole "God" deal. Guess you can't have one without the other, eh? I'm always at my best when I'm able to help someone out; to do things for them. It's not even me being selfless - it's something I do for myself in the end, really. Or want to do. Maybe I should go back to school and become a therapist or so. Bwahahaha, that's rich.
Today's lyrics: Doves - "The Storm." Trite? Yeah, but it makes me feel good right now.
" You weathered the storm
You came out the other side
The place you were born
Is a place inside
Don't be sad it's gone
Don't be sad I'm gone...
To weather the storm
Up on your feet again
If it all comes down
Would you still call this the end?
Don't be sad it's gone
Can't be sad for long
Don't give up be strong
Don't be sad I'm gone
The night you left the storm
To weather it all
To come out the other side
With the moon all high
I'll see you on the other side
So come out the other side"
[Edited on Mar 23, 2005 2:07AM]
and you're so right, jessy is just great. i'm very excited, but nervous at the same time. eek!