polygirlaz

It wasn't this way when I was growing up. We knew our neighbors and weren't too busy or afraid to be friendly.

It's been the way it is today for many years now. Things like the Internet make relationships even more impersonal.

How I miss having someone to share precious moments with.

Thanks for sharing.

Thank you for sharing this part of your life.

Thanks. Remembering to breath is not just important when dealing with intense pain during a scene.

Speaking of scenes. I had one of the most satisfying experiences I've ever had when I played this past Saturday night. I was able to put enough trust in my play partner in order to be able to overcome what used to be a hard limit for me.

I allowed her to perform ball-busting on me. It wasn't just some mild taps either. A very unusual and intense hand-made flogger was applied well over 100 times to my testicles as the flogger was being applied to other body parts as well. The ends of the tails of the flogger were very hard. They were made of leather but had almost no give to them. Many of the blows to my private area were struck full force, yet I never considered using my safe word.

I put my complete trust in my partner to gauge when I'd had enough. I could not have done that unless we already had a previous connection outside of play. Although I've never screamed nearly as loudly as I did the other night, I came away from it as exhilirated and satisfied as any previous play experience I've ever had. This includes my numerous scenes with Karin (Lyrical), which is a statement I never thought I'd make.

I hope it's okay that I shared this with you.

At least that movie was good for something. One of the worst sequels ever, imo.

Gaining wait sucks if you don't mean to do it. I lost 45 pounds a couple of years ago and have gained about 25 of it back. I can't tell you how badly I feel about that.

Maybe I need to find another twenty something Domme to get me back on track. That formula worked once and would probably work again.

I do feel younger than my age, which makes not being able to afford to do things even harder since I have the energy to do them. I wonder how much longer I'll have the physical ability to be this active though.

I'm appealing the decision to cut off my Medicaid, but that's just a delaying tactic. I know they'll cut me off after the hearing that I asked for.

I'm seeing a social worker at a local hospital tomorrow to get some information about alternatives when they cut off my healthcare. Mostly, my concerns are about affording my meds. I took care of my medical tests and checkups recently and I rarely get sick.

Of course, the weay it usually works is that when you have no health care, you start getting sick all of a sudden.

I always say that I don't mind being referred to as dirty or as a man, but don't call me old.

Twas fun hanging out with you guys into the wee hours of the morning. I'm definitely paying for it today but well worth it.

awesome girly!