I feel so......overwhelmed.
By all these things going through my head....and I'm holding them all back as much as I can because I don't wanna break down.
I feel that every part of this trip that had to be organized and planned was a complete failure. Nothing went smoothly, not even on my last days here. And these are all things beyond my control. Sounds cheerful, don't it? I feel like shit, yay...
I wanna thank my friends who came to see me in these last few days, for different reasons. Friday, for being patient and fun...and the ones that were here yesterday - I had such an awesome night...thank you. As Jenn said "we met a chat legend last night", and it could not have been better....
I don't wanna make this long....I don't feel like pouring myself right now because I feel quite vulnerable, but I do wanna say that each one of you who has touched my life in a positive manner in the last six months holds a special place in my heart. I thank you, for everything.
Jenn, you deserve your own paragraph. What an amazing person you are, I love you so much it hurts, and it's so hard to put into words. It hurts to have to leave you. It hurts I was able to do nearly nothing for you, and you did sooo much for me. You rescued me and cared for me.....and we both grew and are better people, and better friends.
You will always have a huge spot in my heart...and I will never forget you and your family. I'm sure I'll always have flashbacks of our little moments in the car, or outside on the back porch, or going out together, or just sitting in the living room watching one of your awesome movies. I hope i can come back sooner than I think I'll be able to, and I'm gonna miss you like hell. I feel like I'm leaving one of my limbs behind.
I seriously can't thank you enough. I love you, mama.
My flight leaves at 9:05am from LAX. Martini79 is coming to see me and sleep over tonight, and he's taking me to the airport tomorrow morning (thank you too, monkeyface! =] ). We leave at around 5am.
5 and a half hours later, I land in Miami, where I shall remain there for 4 hours and a half and try not to go insane. Then I take my second flight down to Sao Paulo....that should last about 7 hours. My best friend should be waiting for me.
My luggage is probably heavier than it's supposed to be. I got rid of everything I possibly could. I have no money, and if they decide to charge me for the weight, I dont know what I will do. I have 7 dollars. I'm packing my own lunch for my first flight.
No, I'm not happy, but i t's not fair for me to forget all that has been done for me during this trip by people who care. I love all of you and will always remember everything.
Thank you.
Love,
Polly
By all these things going through my head....and I'm holding them all back as much as I can because I don't wanna break down.
I feel that every part of this trip that had to be organized and planned was a complete failure. Nothing went smoothly, not even on my last days here. And these are all things beyond my control. Sounds cheerful, don't it? I feel like shit, yay...
I wanna thank my friends who came to see me in these last few days, for different reasons. Friday, for being patient and fun...and the ones that were here yesterday - I had such an awesome night...thank you. As Jenn said "we met a chat legend last night", and it could not have been better....
I don't wanna make this long....I don't feel like pouring myself right now because I feel quite vulnerable, but I do wanna say that each one of you who has touched my life in a positive manner in the last six months holds a special place in my heart. I thank you, for everything.
Jenn, you deserve your own paragraph. What an amazing person you are, I love you so much it hurts, and it's so hard to put into words. It hurts to have to leave you. It hurts I was able to do nearly nothing for you, and you did sooo much for me. You rescued me and cared for me.....and we both grew and are better people, and better friends.
You will always have a huge spot in my heart...and I will never forget you and your family. I'm sure I'll always have flashbacks of our little moments in the car, or outside on the back porch, or going out together, or just sitting in the living room watching one of your awesome movies. I hope i can come back sooner than I think I'll be able to, and I'm gonna miss you like hell. I feel like I'm leaving one of my limbs behind.
I seriously can't thank you enough. I love you, mama.
My flight leaves at 9:05am from LAX. Martini79 is coming to see me and sleep over tonight, and he's taking me to the airport tomorrow morning (thank you too, monkeyface! =] ). We leave at around 5am.
5 and a half hours later, I land in Miami, where I shall remain there for 4 hours and a half and try not to go insane. Then I take my second flight down to Sao Paulo....that should last about 7 hours. My best friend should be waiting for me.
My luggage is probably heavier than it's supposed to be. I got rid of everything I possibly could. I have no money, and if they decide to charge me for the weight, I dont know what I will do. I have 7 dollars. I'm packing my own lunch for my first flight.
No, I'm not happy, but i t's not fair for me to forget all that has been done for me during this trip by people who care. I love all of you and will always remember everything.
Thank you.
Love,
Polly
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phoenixgirl:
I wish I could have come to see you as well....I know you had some hard times on your trip here, but try not to think of those, just think of all the great times you had...I hope you have a safe flight and that all goes well, and hopefully liek you said, that you will return soon. 
bepps:
I hope your flight was super awesome! And I hope you're having fun out there in Brazil! It was super super awesome being able to finally meet you. I'll never forget you, Polly. Ever. And yup. Jenn needs her own shrine. I have one made out for her. It's kindo like a shrine to Budah. I put candies and condoms next to it every day. 