pollythundercat

Hi everyone...

So I used the same picture bc i like it (i corrected it with corel photopaint tho...i wish my skin looked like that right now - and it's an old one too....)

So, this might be a very mixed post, as in happy and sad altogether. I don't know how it's gonna come out, so bear with me....

I waited for a full post now bc I went to the doc and got weighed there....I have a scale at home, but i dont wanna start weighing myself all the time and go nuts about it. So i get weighed once a week at the doc's. This is my 3rd week, and so far I've lost approximately 26 pounds. Now you ask me, do i see a difference? No, not really. The only things i noticed is that i can feel my collarbones more than before, and there's less fat under my chin. Other ppl notice tho, but I wanna notice things myself.....

So Beth asked me what I've been eating....Today is my last day on the liquid diet, which consists of skim milk, maybe blended with some fruit, gatorade, fruit juice, diet jell-o, diet yogurt, coconut "water" (i refuse to call it milk....coconut milk is something completely different, at least here), and blended and filtered soup. Liquids. I was on that diet for 2 weeks, and i cant take it anymore. So tomorrow is another stage....pastes. Blended soup, but not filtered, all sorts of mashed vegetables (i wanna eat mashed potatoes so bad!), mashed fruits (not looking too forward to it tho, not a fruit person), plus everything else i could eat before. Depending on how my stomach accepts that phase, i might go onto the next phase next week, which is always good news. I wanna be able to eat sushi soon....

I rented a treadmill, and it got here today. I need to walk as much as i can, and i hate my neighbors, so i didnt wanna walk on the street. My boss was gonna lend me his, but it doesnt support my weight
I've been spending way too much money bc of the surgery. Medicine, cab to take me to the doc bc there's no one to take me, cinchers, food, appointments. I gave part of the money i had saved for my trip to Seattle to my gma to help with the medical bills for the extra days i had to stay in the hospital. Well, , if you feel generous, it's highly appreciated....my birthday is in the end of the month....

Yeah, my birthday....I love my birthday. But I'm not really looking forward to it right now. Wtf am i gonna do to celebrate my birthday with my close friends with this friggin diet?! Watch them stuff their faces with cake? Go out to dinner, which is usually what we do to celebrate something, and watch ppl eat? As much as im dealing with this in a pretty good way, i dont wanna see that on my birthday. This makes me sad. It might be my last bday in Brazil for a while....I'm buying myself a bag as my birthday gift to myself...maybe that will make me feel better.

Being stuck at home isnt helping either. I live far from most of my close friends. And they have their lives too. One of my closest female friends also had a plastic surgery last week....no one to bring her over, or to take me there. And she helps me a lot....but i miss physical contact with people I love. I wanna be hugged. Plus a lot of other small things that pile up and are contributing to me feeling like crap. I guess it's too much going on for me to digest at once.....this 2nd surgery has been harder to deal with than i thought too. I usually get over things a lot faster than this....which does not make me feel better either....I end up getting mad at myself for feeling so weak. I hope I get better soon.

Thank you for reading. And for always being so nice. I wouldnt post anything if you guys didn't make me feel so comfortable and welcome to do so.

Hope your easter is great....

♥,
Polly