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Well, I don't know how to feel about this. My ex-gf just sent me a really long, drawn-out, pathetic email. It's incredibly flattering and ultimately heartfelt but also kind of sad in the same respect. I mean I dumped her after trying to give her the message for god knows how long, so it's not like our relationship was at it's peak or anything, quite the contrary. So one can imagine how suprised I am when she sends me a letter telling me, firstly, that she'll take me back if I call her and, secondly, how much she loves me (a phrase she never uttered when we were togeteher). In fact, by the end of it, she's gone so far as to give me an ultimatum: life with her or life without her!?! Am I missing something? Didn't I dump you?
If any of you read my journal yesterday, I apologize for being so melodramatic but I realized something as I was writing it which really devastated me. I was reduced to tears and I shouldn't, in rhetrospect, have unburdened my soul upon you people.
Anyways, feeling so much better today then... a massage and a steambath tend to do that for me. The girl at the register even let my guest in for free, not of course without winking at me, so all in all things are looking up. Now I just need to get my head clear, sober up a bit and everything should be smooth sailing. Stay cool kiddos.
-G