Yesterday my roommates found a puppy, it was a little skinny black spazdog that looked like a cross between a black lab and a dachshund. It slept on my bed. My roommates let it out again this morning so it would find its way back home, but it just hung around until I left for work later on. It was raining, and I could see the paw marks from where it was scratching to get back in. It wanted to get in my car and go with me, it was so excited. But I pushed it out and drove to work. As I pulled out, I looked in my rearview and saw a little black blur chasing my car as fast as its little doggie legs would take it. I felt awful. The dog was gone when I came home.
This afternoon, my ex-ex-girlfriend called me. She is going to be in town when I am coming home, and in fact is living in Michigan again. I am really excited about being able to see her. I always feel like her entire attention is on me whenever we are together. I don't ever feel like I'm getting a 100% from someone, but I always do when I'm with her. Sometimes I have this crazy idea that we will be married someday, even though life practically dictates that will never happen.
LSATs come in in 2 weeks. I'm going to law school. My life in that regard is certain. But what I find really weird is that I know my life will be taking deterministically different paths depending on where I go. So much of what will determine my future is opaque, but as I project myself into the lives I can envision for myself, I can see that even things like the city I live in will make a huge difference in my future. Will I end up in Chicago with Imagoldfish and a bunch of other kids from school, in Philly with my sister (what?) in Michigan near the folks (and my ex, who is now living in Ann Arbor), in Boston, where I only know Megan and some SG folks, or in DC or San Francisco, where I know no one. Where will each of these avenues lead? This crucial period is right in front of me, and I have no idea where I will be in 10 months. I think that am not well suited for indeterminate states of being.
I am going to start volunteering at a non-profit that builds computers for people who don't have them. They just don't know it yet. I'm going in to offer my time when I go down to their facility on Thursday at 6.
Now tell me about your dog, your first love, a decision you made that changed your life, or how to configure a Linksys wireless PCMCIA card in Debian Linux.
This afternoon, my ex-ex-girlfriend called me. She is going to be in town when I am coming home, and in fact is living in Michigan again. I am really excited about being able to see her. I always feel like her entire attention is on me whenever we are together. I don't ever feel like I'm getting a 100% from someone, but I always do when I'm with her. Sometimes I have this crazy idea that we will be married someday, even though life practically dictates that will never happen.
LSATs come in in 2 weeks. I'm going to law school. My life in that regard is certain. But what I find really weird is that I know my life will be taking deterministically different paths depending on where I go. So much of what will determine my future is opaque, but as I project myself into the lives I can envision for myself, I can see that even things like the city I live in will make a huge difference in my future. Will I end up in Chicago with Imagoldfish and a bunch of other kids from school, in Philly with my sister (what?) in Michigan near the folks (and my ex, who is now living in Ann Arbor), in Boston, where I only know Megan and some SG folks, or in DC or San Francisco, where I know no one. Where will each of these avenues lead? This crucial period is right in front of me, and I have no idea where I will be in 10 months. I think that am not well suited for indeterminate states of being.
I am going to start volunteering at a non-profit that builds computers for people who don't have them. They just don't know it yet. I'm going in to offer my time when I go down to their facility on Thursday at 6.
Now tell me about your dog, your first love, a decision you made that changed your life, or how to configure a Linksys wireless PCMCIA card in Debian Linux.
