Wednesday May 27, 2009

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Hello!! How are you guys doing?!

I had this crazy dream last night! Not to mention I hate dreaming. Every time I dream, when I wake up my eyes are like sore. Sounds odd but most times I just cover them with cucumber slices. I've been dreaming a lot lately... I really don't like it.
But anyway the crazy dream. I kinda want to write this as a story so i'm sorry for the length of the summary.

SPOILERS! (Click to view)

So, I don't really know what my role was in the dream at all or who I was in relation to the people in it.
There was this lady who killed two of her children. She has many many kids, some that she adopted and some that were strays and runaways. So somehow, I get called down to the small town, to check on the rest of the kids and get them to knew homes. So at this point I'm thinking that I'm working with like an adoption agency or something. But when I get there, and I ask the police what happened, they tell me all this stuff about how the lady was such a kind person and she would have given her last penny to a kid if it would benefit them and they could use it and turn it into a meal if she couldn't make one. Then they start to show me pictures of the crime scene. I know I shouldn't be seeing pictures like this so, I'm really confused. One of the kids a blond haired girl with brilliant brown eyes was stabbed behind the house, like the women threw some knives threw the window. The other child a tad bit older than her was a boy and the women took the weapons she killed the girl with and stabbed him once, and then propped both kids up like dolls and cleaned up their faces and hair. The station called the the 'sleeping angels.' Right when I about to ask why they were showing me all this, they took me to the morgue to see the bodies. I tried to tell them that I'm not someone who needs to see that, they just told me that I needed to see this. When we got to the morgue right below the station, and the doctor opened up the freezers and pulled out the two trays with the bodies... I saw two life size ball jointed dolls, with seam lines and such from the autopsy. Their skin and body was resin and their eyes were made of glass. The doctor told me that he was able to do the autopsy and and when he put them in the freezer, they turned into dolls. Then he changed his mind and said someone must be playing a very intricate trick. Though he didn't even sound convinced of his own deduction.
Next thing I know the sheriff, depute and I are all standing outside the house. It looks eerily familiar to me... Like I can remember hanging out on the porch and drinking lemonade that me and some others made after cleaning the house. The sheriff told me that all the kids had vanished and all that left in the house were dolls in the attic. Something in my mind just clicked that we used to hide in the attic from strangers, and no matter what whenever thy checked the attic they never saw us. All of a sudden as I'm looking around the the front of the house a boy comes running out the house and toward me. Out of no where I call him Sean and hold him tightly. Then when I snapped back into reality I just looked at the kid. He smiled and I wiped away his tears. The sheriff was myphed and the depute was about to go inside the house. We all heard a crash and the sheriff told me to get the kid across the street just in case. So I take Sean's hand and we walk to the sidewalk and then he tugs on my hand as I start to cross the street. He tells me that I'm the only one that could leave the house... until Llyn and Timmy... I wasn't understanding, so I just picked him up and walked across the street, when I went to set him back down... I found that he was a life size ball jointed doll like the other two....
Then I woke up.



Again sorry for the length of that.

I have some shopping to do, so I should probably throw on clothes and go get that done. I've been doing pretty good. We just had like four days straight of rain. It was awesome! But their was a festival going down in Old Colorado City called Territory Days and because of the massive amount of rain pouring down I wasn't able to go and I think they had to cancel. The weather even got me a little depressed on Sunday. I ran into Tyler and we said nothing to each other and yet we talked too. It was about random stuff and when I got home I kinda like broke down about it.

Good news! My friend Mel in California got a phone and we have been texting/sms-ing each other a lot since she told me. Its fun, because I really need someone like her in my life, and despite the fact that we've never meet in person... I really appreciate her and I don't think I ever want to loose her. She's been a rock, that despite the distance has a way of making me feel like I'm not alone with just a text during the day. Whats better is that she seems to need me too. We have a lot in common and yet we are so very different. Its better that way.

Some bad news... So, a while ago when I was being really whiny, depressed and sad because of this guy going through and in a way successfully ruining my life at the time. Well he jumped his ass back. I guess he's been reading my journal on my art site and he called me yesterday to call me a whore for sleeping with Tommy. Then he called my phone, then he started texting me. Like through the whole day. I just turned off my phone, then when I turned it back on, oh man... I had some stuff waiting for me. Honestly, it was like the same shit just a different day. Then he tried to tell me that he's just distraught at the fact that I could never love him.... My only answer was oh yah, because I get all lovey-dovey, when a person goes through my friends and purposefully rips apart friendships, so that I'd be left with just him, someone who calls me all the names in the book, so on and so forth comes into my life... Yah. So, basically all of yesterday I was laughing my arse off, took a nap and then came back for more.

I haven't done much when it comes to designing my dream house and crap. I've been meaning to draw, but instead I decided to draw and do some writing. I finally got back to working on my story LtH/London tea House. Which felt good. I want to see Star Trek again. I need to see Spock. I've been doing really good on my borderline veganism. I'm so proud of myself. Sims 3 anyone...? I'm not really sure about it. My friends have been checking more than I have and it seems like you can't really make modded things and customize things. That's the way I live. I need cool stuff for my sims. Like look at my favorite babies. I got all their custom needs together and they look fucking boss.

That's my Vestipian!
The blond is Brackie and the black chick is Pixie Ray... a sort of sim version of me. With my cheek piercings!

Oh Sims! How I love to destroy your lives then make them better. Make some go crazy and all that. Either way.. I spoil my sims.

So again, how are you guys doing. I'm curious to know. And when I get back I'll check all that I've been missing.

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freudianslip:
I had a dream last night, the little bit i slept and made a mental note to remember it...... but I just remember wanting to remember it. They never leave me feeling much of anything. I have never been one to dwell on them.

The ones that I do remember, I somehow keep the images just beyond my ability to articulate and within the grasp of memory.....

I've given up really. I have a bit more clarity after almost a few days here. It is what it is. I am not thrilled to be here, but am less excited about plan B...... so we'll see what happens. Thanks for being supportive.
aterrorca:
Lemme ask you a question and anyone else who wants to answer. When you dream for a long period in one session of sleep do you feel really sleepy in the morning like you were up all night? Unfortunately It happens to me.

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