pilar

danielle likes the smell after it rains

she also likes to go shopping for new shoes and new undies

danielle does not like dissapointment

she also does not like to not be understood!

danielle loves to talk in the third person
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I just got done watching Amelie! It was an amazing movie! Made me fall in love with movies all over again!
I now want to name my first child that is a girl Amelie!
She was the cutest girl ever...BTW it took me a whole week to watch this movie and I have mad late fees!
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So I am suppose to go to NY this coming up week, but to my dismay, I was told that my trip may not be happening.
See I was suppose to stay with my friend Andy while I was in NY. Somethings between us got a bit odd, and now he basically said that it would be a bad idea if I stayed out there, When I heard this I was practically sobbing. I guess the whole reality of dissapointment in my life just hit me like a ton of bricks. It seems that lately, if it isn't one thing it is another...and I just can't get ahead.
Thankfully I know some people in Philly and they want me to stay with them, so I can't wait to actually be able to get out of here! So although things aren't working out just as I had planned, I have definately gotten something together that seems good!
I was pissed though...and I still am a bit...pissed and sad.
I think I have realized that for the last 2 years of my life, I have been in and out of depression. I think it has become a serious issue, and I need to get my head sorted. I don't know if professionally or just by my own means. I guess sometimes I just get so overwhelmed by what I think SHOULD happen, I can't deal with what actually DOES happen!

I may slowly be loosing my mind...I miss being happy!