Ok, so I'm new to this whole Blog Concept. I know nobody's probably going to read this, but I've been writing in a journal off and on since I was 13 with no intention of it ever being read by anyone. That being said, I'll probalby sensor myself a little more than in my "private journal". This is the internet after all, and I've run into SG journal entries on google for crissakes.
I find the process of writing rather theraputic. Even more theraputic perhaps is reading what you wrote more than a month ago. It's really quite amazing how much a person can change, yet they still hang on to such a strong concept of self. It will always be me looking from behind my eyes whether I'm a moody teenage grunger, a geeky ten year old brat or a 22 year old aspiring scientest with an overpowering will to change the way things are done and thought about.
I must say, I've been a paying member of this site for more than a year now, but I've only set up a profile within the last week (long time listener first time caller kind of thing). It was an idea I had been toying with for a while, and was finally prompted by a pressing need to comment on Piper's beautiful new set.
At first I was kind of shy to the thought of becoming non-anonymous. I've often heard this site refered to as a "porn site", and anonymity and porn go together like well . . . two things that go together well. But of course, if SG really were just a porn site, I wouldn't be giving them my money. Not only are all of the SG's 10 times prettier and less fake than any porn star, but you get the definite feeling that they're complex human beings who's beauty is to be celbrated rather than objects with only one purpose. To me, that's way hotter than any graphic depiction of penetration.
Part of that I think, is the whole "community" aspect. That this site is also a place for like-minded people to interact. And though I've always been somewhat doubtful of the merits of online interaction which is really no substitue for face-to-face communication, I figured I'd give it a shot. If nothign else, the sense of detatchement that comes through electronic communication makes it alot harder to get social anxiety. I find people tend to be a little more candid when they aren't actually saying the words out loud.
So here I am writing away. Procrasiting on the day before my big move from Point Grey on the westmost tip of Vancouver to the "East Side" of the city where there's a little more of that "counter-culture" vibe. It'll be an extra 20 or 30 minutes on the bus to UBC every morning, but I figure I can get a significant chunk of reading done on the commute and if nothing else it may actually constitute my one moment of pause in my otherwise hectic day.
I find the process of writing rather theraputic. Even more theraputic perhaps is reading what you wrote more than a month ago. It's really quite amazing how much a person can change, yet they still hang on to such a strong concept of self. It will always be me looking from behind my eyes whether I'm a moody teenage grunger, a geeky ten year old brat or a 22 year old aspiring scientest with an overpowering will to change the way things are done and thought about.
I must say, I've been a paying member of this site for more than a year now, but I've only set up a profile within the last week (long time listener first time caller kind of thing). It was an idea I had been toying with for a while, and was finally prompted by a pressing need to comment on Piper's beautiful new set.
At first I was kind of shy to the thought of becoming non-anonymous. I've often heard this site refered to as a "porn site", and anonymity and porn go together like well . . . two things that go together well. But of course, if SG really were just a porn site, I wouldn't be giving them my money. Not only are all of the SG's 10 times prettier and less fake than any porn star, but you get the definite feeling that they're complex human beings who's beauty is to be celbrated rather than objects with only one purpose. To me, that's way hotter than any graphic depiction of penetration.
Part of that I think, is the whole "community" aspect. That this site is also a place for like-minded people to interact. And though I've always been somewhat doubtful of the merits of online interaction which is really no substitue for face-to-face communication, I figured I'd give it a shot. If nothign else, the sense of detatchement that comes through electronic communication makes it alot harder to get social anxiety. I find people tend to be a little more candid when they aren't actually saying the words out loud.
So here I am writing away. Procrasiting on the day before my big move from Point Grey on the westmost tip of Vancouver to the "East Side" of the city where there's a little more of that "counter-culture" vibe. It'll be an extra 20 or 30 minutes on the bus to UBC every morning, but I figure I can get a significant chunk of reading done on the commute and if nothing else it may actually constitute my one moment of pause in my otherwise hectic day.