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well it has been 5 days since I had my eyes operated on(PRK not LASIK) and vision is still a little bit blurry and I'm still fairly light sensitive, but that is to be expected with PRK...

only recently could I even look at my computer screen.. too bright...

I have just been sitting around the house listening to TV and napping all day and...
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abyssia:
ok, i went to look up the PRK to find out what it is, but things are loading too slowly for my mind so i just read the bits in the hits and eeps! ouch! zowie!!! i even looked at a picture... remind me not to do that. do heal well and fast. and no more driving until you can see! this is why they have delivery, don't ya know? but i want chinese... amazing! they too deliver! ;o)

i think you a forehead kiss for healing.
cookiepuss:
It was in my bookbag with the rest of the stuff I kept saying was missing. It was exactly with the items I said it would be, just not in a box like I thought.
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I love looking at myself half nekkid now that I have my tattoo half finished...once I get it completely finished and get my side pieces I suspect that I will walk around shirt less as often as possible.... wink
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cookiepuss:
I got your chopsticks.
They moved the section around where they used to be so I was having a hard time finding all of them.

I picked medium brown ones, no design or anything.
I can take them back if you want different ones!
cookiepuss:
I hope your eyes are feeling better (and less like sand is in them).

Maybe you will have a nice pearl at the end of this?
If you get two, I want one!
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Update time(a real one this time):

1. for whatever reason I have not yet put this in my journal...in 6 days I'm going to get laser surgery on my eyes...RattFinkPink will be taking me to and from...it is somewhat of an inside joke that she is my girlfriend on these adventures...

2. so far this week I have worked out 5 days of 6...
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abyssia:
I agree with RattFinkPink on the angle - and all I can see is your face too - without signing up. I'm sure she'll take some striking shots of you. (Maybe even with personality! ;o)

Congratulations on the working out and the eye surgery... Two things I know you want for yourself. That makes me smile. So does the fact that you're in better spirits of late. Now, don't forget that I'm still waiting for the next installment! Thank you....
devilsplum:
Yeah, let rattfinkpink take some pix of you. She's really good with the lens. Best ones of me I have were from her.
Plus, I just have a special place for her in my heart so I'm a bit partial.. love
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today I skipped...

If you read this you should skip at some point in the day as well...


Have fun, and be child-like today... biggrin
abyssia:
i hid under the dining room table like i used to - and dogod came with me. that was very child-like. like the child i used to be. i wasn't much of a skipper.... more of a hider. that kind of explains some things, eh?
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I cannot control how I feel....I can only control the emotions that I show to others...do to my lack of emotions and inability to fake them, knowing me is the closest to knowing an AI as most might come to in this life...

obscure quote for today:

"it is easy to love folly in a child"
abyssia:
you have emotions. i've read them. you can't fake it with me baby! you're also very good at analyzing your emotions... and those of others. so... that's where the hiding comes. i'm still awaiting part five.
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So I finished painting my entry way the other day...man that took a long time, but that was the plan...There was no time limit to get it done and it gave me something to do each day for a little bit and helped me feel productive...

I coned(or is it conned anyway tricked) blackgryphon into coming over to workout with me...we are just doing some...
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cookiepuss:
Well Rich must have had so much fun with you - that it didn't cross his mind to call us to go shooting. Oh well.

Can't wait to see your entry way, now that it's finished.
cookiepuss:
I messaged you already, but not sure which site you read first.

Sooo, you can drop off the movie tomorrow, but let me know what time you expect to do so.

Also, Erin thinks a cute girl in our gym class (if single), might be a good choice for you.... I definitely agree.
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It may be that the thing I thought I wanted least may be the thing that brings me the most joy...

And the thing that I assume I want most is that which brings me the most pain...


you figure this one out and my hat is off to you...
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wolfangel:
ambiguity abounds...

the fulfillment of desire can confound, and lead to longing for the anticipation.

abyssia:
wolf, with grace and beauty you state one of the most basic of all human struggles.
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I take the slow approach to getting up...

I set my alarm about 30min before I intend to get up and just hit snooze until I get out of bed...

whatever
abyssia:
ugh. morning people. i wake when i wake.. roll over, call a friend or two... nap. yeah, life is good.
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So not 5min ago I was folding laundry(I'm not done yet I stopped in the middle)...and a thought occurred to me...a memory if you will...

A few days back(who knows could be 3 could be 13) I was at the doctors office getting my final exam for my broken collar bone...I pulled my shirt down around the collar so the doc could see my wound...she...
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cookiepuss:
cookiepuss:
No, I will explain to you later.
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So I was watching(and by watching I mean like any good ADD adult that I was channel surfing back and forth between about 6 shows that were on at the same time) VH1 and they had this countdown...Cheesetastic TV stars and at #12 they had Bob Ross...Fuck that shit...Bob Ross is the shit...


today I went to the store to buy colouring books and colour...
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abyssia:
what is with you guys and the enemy crushing and lamenting women???
abyssia:
well, i've got nothing against the brut force for survival and the survival of the fittest thing. in fact, mercy kind of bugs me. the survival of our best genetics is imperative to the healthy survival of the species. of course, opinions differ as to which genes are most useful....

the planet is overpopulated. a lovely natural disaster happened in a most populous part of the world. though it's a drop in the bucket in terms of the global population, the earth spoke. why are we attempting to save lives that she has claimed!?! am i just being callous? does it matter that a couple of my friends and their baby are missing because of the tsunami and that i still believe as i do? does that make me more callous? does it say anything at all. i mean, i could say that even when the cost is personal, i hold to this belief. or maybe it doesn't actually say a damn thing. fuck.

some are weak of body, some weak of mind. you are strong in both. please, reproduce. i am weak of body and sometimes have a less that useful mind. i shall not reproduce. not sure i need to anyway. but that's a tale for another day. ;o)

i find it interesting that of all the comments and questions i've left for you, this is the one you answered with such vigor. (smile)
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yesterday I went running...I looked at my running log and I had only ran once in the entire month of December...

last night I watched "saved" and "dawn of the dead" over at RattFinkPink's house...both were good movies...I'm still under contract to attend a cheesy movie with her though...I thought "saved" would count, but it turned out to be a good movie...

I have...
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engelwood760:
well just so happin i have brand new work boots and there 10R's yea your size well to bad i stay on the west coast i guess i could send them well hope you liked the pic's i sent put them on my site for me man later. wink
abyssia:
thanks for wishing me well. and that's not at all a bad idea about the massaging party. in fact.... if i take the way-back machine.... i seem to remember a study hall in high school where we would sit on the floor lined up behind one another and give each other shoulder rubs. no, not everyone. only the total goobers. we even had a rotation schedule for the person in the front of the line. this cold seems to be bringing up some of my odder memories.
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I'm just not sure anymore....

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When you die every thought you ever had dies with you...even if you write it down...when you write it down it is no longer your thought...it is dead...if some one else reads it then they have a thought about it and it becomes their thought...no longer yours...and then at some point they too die...

All the words ever written...
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wolfangel:
i need to abscond some thoughts...

just in the middle of reading old journals...

interesting and self-indulgent...
godsmoker:
Happy New Year!!!!!

Thanks. Maybe they would have more meaning if they were videotaped? smile