phedre

You were "different" around me because you loved me
That's not so hard to understand
I hate feeling so much older
When I'm not
I hate understanding
I almost wish I didn't
You'll resent me for saying these things
But I wish you could see
How many times I've said it
I so wish that you could see
I'm so tired, so tired...
This makes me so tired
I want to fall asleep
And never wake up until you see
Will you ever see?
(how many times has she said
she's in love, and not been)
And I know you both and I see
That you aren't right for each other
(and not because it's not right for me)
I hate the fact that you've made yourself
Be so anti-me
And I hate the way you shiver,
Afraid to trust yourself with me
That's a sign you should stop ignoring
And just give in to
Avoiding my bedroom at all costs
Cause you couldn't be there and not remember,
Not really think...

I'm not hypersensitive
I just keep getting bad shit I don't deserve


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I'm currently listening to Hotel Paper (the song, specifically, not just the CD) by Michelle Branch and bawling my eyes out.