pest01134

i want to die, infact thats why i smoke, ciggarettes are one of the more sociably acceptable forms of suicide. anyway as i was saying i will most likely kill myself, the question of when......
i suppose the only things holding me up are my three little brothers, my grandparents and marijuana. you know ive been thinking about this for years and that is all ive come up with.
I look at our society today and wonder what the fuck. in this country no one can have free speech without paying for it, albeit some instances minor than others. I cannot pursue happiness. Let me clarify, wanting to die and all i am convinced i will be happiest when not living.Yet suicide is looked down upon,regardless of the suicidees obvious feeling.suicide is oddly enough illegal. now where the marijuana comes in, being in lue of suicide ive found the best way to cope and/or possibly find brief spurts of false happiness is to endulge in the nightly joint, which has led to 3 arrests, which also might have had a hand in the downfall of my respect of this christian society.and by the way i do believe christianity is very evidently another major pit of society, What i am trying to say is being stuck living, becuase you care more about not hurting others,when you'd rather die is really hard.




waiting to die in Arizona
Drew