oh complaining, I wish I knew how to quit you!
so one of my friends left me a message on one of my blogs telling me i have no reason to feel like i haven't lived or that i'm not living ....you can read it here
and although he's right
i am somehow feeling a bit negative about things and i don't know why
i have the hours i wanted at my job (although now that this girl julie can't work tuesdays anymore i have to work the 8-4 shift which means i have to get up at 6..which is yucky) but even before that..although i have the hours i wanted, i still feel an unhappiness with my job...i get upset with customers really easily...mostly when i'm busy, (i mean of course i don't (or try not to) express it to them) but still..
i can't ever seem to be happy
...if it's slow and i don't make money, I complain.
if it's really busy and i make a lot of money..i still complain that it was a really hard and stressful day
i really wish i could quit complaining...
and see things in a more positive light
i think i'm getting bored with my job, and i want to do something i really want to do..i just wish i knew what that was
(and that i could make a lot of money doing it)
i feel like i've been living here and working at the restaurant for so much longer than 4 months...
i feel like i need a vacation
i haven't gone anywhere really since last summer (2004)
but that won't happen for a while now because of the move
btw we got an apartment and we've moving by Feb 1
and of course i've thought of many things to complain about concerning the apt and moving, but i wont' do it here
so yeah i've got a lot going on right now
and (yes this is random)
but i miss sex..actually i have sex
but i mean i miss the desire to have sex
the throbbing, tingling, aching between my legs
i thought it would come back after the stress of college was gone
but now the stresses of real life are here
but i'm not even sure if that's the problem
i blame lexapro
ok, back on track
another thing...i really miss my friends
so this weekend i'm going to Greenwood Lake to visit my mom, so maybe i can see some friends there (like catherine, and punkrockjuliette--i have your birthday present)
it will be a nice little rest before the hell of packing and working and packing and working and moving next week and weekend
so one of my friends left me a message on one of my blogs telling me i have no reason to feel like i haven't lived or that i'm not living ....you can read it here
and although he's right
i am somehow feeling a bit negative about things and i don't know why
i have the hours i wanted at my job (although now that this girl julie can't work tuesdays anymore i have to work the 8-4 shift which means i have to get up at 6..which is yucky) but even before that..although i have the hours i wanted, i still feel an unhappiness with my job...i get upset with customers really easily...mostly when i'm busy, (i mean of course i don't (or try not to) express it to them) but still..
i can't ever seem to be happy
...if it's slow and i don't make money, I complain.
if it's really busy and i make a lot of money..i still complain that it was a really hard and stressful day
i really wish i could quit complaining...
and see things in a more positive light
i think i'm getting bored with my job, and i want to do something i really want to do..i just wish i knew what that was
(and that i could make a lot of money doing it)
i feel like i've been living here and working at the restaurant for so much longer than 4 months...
i feel like i need a vacation
i haven't gone anywhere really since last summer (2004)
but that won't happen for a while now because of the move
btw we got an apartment and we've moving by Feb 1
and of course i've thought of many things to complain about concerning the apt and moving, but i wont' do it here
so yeah i've got a lot going on right now
and (yes this is random)
but i miss sex..actually i have sex
but i mean i miss the desire to have sex
the throbbing, tingling, aching between my legs
i thought it would come back after the stress of college was gone
but now the stresses of real life are here
but i'm not even sure if that's the problem
i blame lexapro
ok, back on track
another thing...i really miss my friends
so this weekend i'm going to Greenwood Lake to visit my mom, so maybe i can see some friends there (like catherine, and punkrockjuliette--i have your birthday present)
it will be a nice little rest before the hell of packing and working and packing and working and moving next week and weekend
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Are you originally from Greenwood Lake? I used to go fishing there all the time. I loved that lake because i caught (and released) the most bass there.