persya

ok so in response to my last entry, which was this:

"No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention.

Well get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. "

which btw is from Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk

i have this to say:
i already kinda feel that way though

i don't feel like i do enough with my life but at the same time i feel like i have no time to do anything cos i'm tired after work, don't have enough money to be splurging etc etc

i wish i could travel and see the world
or that i had been paying more attention when i went to france, switzerland and the UK

i thought i was..but all of that seems so distant and fuzzy...i mean i WAS 17..but it seems like it was just a dream

also i kinda wish i could have been more outgoing as a teenager and experienced more
i sure do miss not having responsibilities

adults always said to me, "enjoy being a child..don't be in such a rush to grow up"

i wish i had listened

i just wanted to get older so i could have freedom and rights ...to have sex, to buy and drink alcohol, to go to venues 21+...to subscribe to see naked chicks online haha

but yeah..like vonesper said..ferris bueller says it well too
"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."