at the risk of sounding like a total hippie, the happy medium between [or perhaps something totally different all together from] 'i trust you' and 'i don't trust you' is 'i accept you.' somehow, without really thinking about it, i've fallen into it these days and, boy, is it making my life super easy.
strangely, i never get jealous of people i really care about. more than anything, i'm happy they've entered my sphere of existence and whatever decisions they make, whether contrary to 'what i want' or not, are just more reasons to appreciate them. lots of times, i become oddly elated when someone i care about does something that should hurt me. maybe i'm a masochist. or maybe i'm happy that they're doing their own will rather than mine. it's probably both, in turns.
the one disturbing thing about the jealousy is that i tend to be jealous not of people i necessarily have a great affinity or respect for, but of people who are in positions to take care of me. like, in a fatherly/motherly way. maybe i need to work on the independence thing.
strangely, i never get jealous of people i really care about. more than anything, i'm happy they've entered my sphere of existence and whatever decisions they make, whether contrary to 'what i want' or not, are just more reasons to appreciate them. lots of times, i become oddly elated when someone i care about does something that should hurt me. maybe i'm a masochist. or maybe i'm happy that they're doing their own will rather than mine. it's probably both, in turns.
the one disturbing thing about the jealousy is that i tend to be jealous not of people i necessarily have a great affinity or respect for, but of people who are in positions to take care of me. like, in a fatherly/motherly way. maybe i need to work on the independence thing.
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i'm glad it makes your life easy to keep it in mind... 't'shit can be enough of a challenge without all that "wtf is going on" crap.
hippies are cool.