people
... strange how things go so far i realy dont like stupid people they make me 
and most of it when they try to explain to you that they actualy tought about you all day its lame how i can react to this i wish i wouldnt had to think about it makes me feel weird but i have to live my life right mate it isnt a choice i made of living my life like that it just came by itself ... god and its creation sometimes makes me wonder of how much longer will i stay here i dont like to sound pathetic but at times i do makes me want to wonder the why of thing the curiosity its good when u think about it but then everyone has to know about it if you fuck things up. 
... theres always what you can learn that will save you ? but i dont realy tought about what would come out of it when i got to realize things always be things that wont repeat themself like right now ... i guess i wont get a cute girl to call me coz i dont know any but here on sg i get the chance to meet someone i already have full of crushes and eveyday that i come here i have this urge to knowledge of what i had miss with me life lol thers always stars right they have more money like i met darcy and all i was praying for was to be buried under a icecream truck so i could melt under it like that wont hapend actauly she said hi to me and im pretty sure i raised my eyes to watch her boobs like the rest of the cute girls ive met must be one of the only things i remember of my mom telling me look straight at the eyes ha ! silly me
i still watch girls on the streets when im whit my dad in the CAR its just that i dont know shait about them they could be a ilusion and nothing would be more realistic to it i guess my psychiatrist knows a lot about it hes young and devoted not like the other ones i had he realy does it to me hmmm i forgot about stupid people and have to be way faster next time right ha ! ok ill close my blog here and guess next time im going to present to you i will have a better excuse bye stranger
p.s completly hurting my ear and i wont put a picture because theres already one in one of my earlier blogs