peaches

It is a beautiful day today. The sun is shining so nicely here in SoCal.

Lately I have been feeling lifeless. I have been home laying around and sleeping more than usual. I feel like the life has been sucked out of me. I have no energy whatsoever.

Tomorrow I will be booked all day. I will be tatting 3 peeps and hopefully this helps me get out of this rut!

I'm tired of being depressed. I'm tired of feeling and thinking this way. I just want to be the happy energetic person i'm used to.

I feel like crawling out of my skin.

I feel like if I were to go missing no one would notice.

I think thats why i sleep so much, because i'm tired of thinking all day about my problems and ways to solve them.

I hate TV! I feel like it takes up valuable time! I feel like I could be doing other things instead of wasting time staring at a screen. But.... right now the TV is the only thing that keeps me interested. The only thing that keeps me sane. I can watch TV all day and not get bored or irritated.

I hate what I have become.... a lifeless being, with no goals, motivation, ambition, nothing. I don't feel alive.

I don't feel like i'm living. I feel like i'm surviving.