pb's SuicideGirls Blog

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ghettoblaster:

thats good enough for me
thanks man

Dec 15, 2004

maurauder:

My return from the dead! Finals are over and I'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

My email is being janky but I'll write back to you as soon as it calms down. Still trying to settle on dates and times and finances and all that good stuff. Very exciting...

Dec 16, 2004

in the past i was an overnight lover, a fleeting and angry bundle of sinew and flesh. a ne'er-do-well with more attention than one boy could honorably handle. i tore through hearts at breakneck speed. i was this whirlwind of lust and eyes and crooked smiles; oft leaving red-eyed ruin in my wake. i loved, intense adoration, the earnest stares and soft sighs. each and...
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smuffy:

for a 29 year old you sure have lived a lot.

what the fuck am I doing wrong?

Dec 14, 2004

ghettoblaster:

Ha, thanks

Dec 14, 2004

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v0rge:

u still here man? i hope those sounds did not get ya, i would miss your poetic entrys.

Dec 11, 2004

delusion:

I will see you in January. And, hopefully, I will get drunk and ridiculous and do scandalous things before passing out sloppily across whatever patch of floor (or bureau drawer, I'm small and not picky) that you have reserved for me.

This is too good to pass up.

Dec 11, 2004

oy there maggots!

back in, jacked in and ready to...whatever.

if i ever have to go to NJ again i'll probably rampage through the place, offing anyone who deems it necessary to remind me how quaint the pine barrens are. ugh.

visited new york. that was rad. i made someone a bit jealous by doing that, har har. i was amazed by how nice the...
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aliceinmyhead:

the clousre vhs is on my xmas list

Dec 10, 2004

reacher:

Welcome back bro.

in a hotel room. nothing to do but sleep, work, and workout.

Gee, that sounds just like my home life.

I always have trouble sleeping in hotels. Crunchy pillows and such.

Both nervous and immensely excited at once, eh? Funny how those two are often intertwined. When I feel this way, I know I'm doing something right, or at least attempting right.

As far as the film -- it's being edited as we speak. The producers are planning to pimp it heavily to the film festival circuit, and after it makes it rounds there, maybe
IFC and Sundance channel as well. Unsure on how long this will all take, but I'll have details in my journal as things unfold.

Dec 10, 2004

starting tomorrow, i will be out of town on business in NJ for about two weeks. i'm not sure what i'm going to do with myself without internet access. i've stocked up on books (like, 5. i read incessantly) and music. i'm borrowing a friend's xbox for when i'm in the hotel and not having any luck hitting on the girl at the counter. i...
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thejuanupsman:

Hope you are enjoying your trip. I have not been very good at responding or updating lately. But I do read. I just, feel, lately like I am failing at any attempts to really interact with people. Most of the time I would rather not say anything than struggle with having nothing to say. Anyway, hope to see you back soon.

Oh and quit trying to make me develop a chrush on Marauder. I have enough crushes. I don't need anymore. She is damn cute though.

Dec 9, 2004

crushjunkie:

Dude, get your ass back to the site, already. I need more snark in my diet. I'm beginning to wear thin.

Dec 9, 2004

thanks to all for the nice comments. made the experience a bit less...bashful for me.

so what am i going to do about it all? well, sit alone in my box and drink chocolate soy milk and have a bag o popcorn and watch Dawn of the Dead director's cut. i feel like i should be out there in the cold, the wild--hunting up some...
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olsen:

today wasn't the bad one actually.....but a few days back, I lost a job that had just been offered to me. Because I didn't call my new boss back. He had left a detailed message with one of my roommates. And my roommate never gave it to me. By the time I found out that there had been a message, he had already decided that I'm horribly irresponsible and that he didn't want to work with me. This wasn't just any job, either. It really was a dream come true, once in a lifetime opportunity.

Nov 27, 2004

captsparrow:

chocolate and zombies...great combo. the director's cut is definitely on my list of things to buy when I get some cash.

I'm pretty sure that's Tegan. Hot.

Nov 28, 2004

the following are re-hashings of previous journal entries. thought i'd bring them up as i can't really think clearly at the moment and both entries sort of mirror how i'm feeling right now.

-pb

<---- is now an sb

book: neuromancer
music: massive attack

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don't come near me with those hips, that skin, your smoooooth scent.

i hope your lithe fingertips tangle in that...
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wendy:

i had the most insane dream when i was taking a nap earlier. i had a dream i woke up and everything was different in my apartment .. like completely rearranged and in different rooms and everything. i was walking around and it was all like that and i was seeing people and being like whats going on why is everything out of order and everyone was all weird and distorted. i thought someone slipped me acid and that i was never going to be normal again. i've never been so happy to wake up. it was insane. the people looked like the people in the black hole sun video.

Nov 26, 2004

crushjunkie:

She does not know about SG yet.

I must try to acquaint her with this little online world of ours before I pop the "do you want to take nekkie pics of each other and post them on the internet" question...

Possible scenario #1:
me ->

her ->