SG Burlesque, DC tuesday night? hrrmmmmm. i dislike going out on weeknights and being a zombie the next day at work.
then again, i really do like zombies.
although these results are promising, they require more research.
i've also decided i want to start my tattoo journey...beginning with my upper legs/thighs. why? because they're not likely to go flabby and there's lots of space. i'm...
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then again, i really do like zombies.
although these results are promising, they require more research.
i've also decided i want to start my tattoo journey...beginning with my upper legs/thighs. why? because they're not likely to go flabby and there's lots of space. i'm...
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EDIT: ok, since i just got my second email asking if those kids in my profile pic are mine...they're not. i don't have kids or ex-wives and whatnot...that i know of, heh. i'm just a big dork and like to play with other peoples' kids when i can as long as i don't have to be the responsible one. -pb
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roxxee:
I really hope when this Army term is over we can AF. That would rock.
lightsneeze:
It does sound like you've had an interesting time at work lately. hmm...wanna trade?
somtimes i worry reality exists outside of my meager abilities to percieve it. and then i feel sort of cheated.
-pb
music: oakenfold
book: endless nights
-pb
music: oakenfold
book: endless nights
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zephyra:
I kinda doubt it.
I'm getting stuck with needles and ink again tomorrow.
I'm getting stuck with needles and ink again tomorrow.
maurauder:
I was thinking last night how it must be very surreal to be in DC right now. It's hard enough being a continent away and completely inundated with Reagan mania. It must be odd to be in the depths of the madness, all the thousands of flags at half mast, all the tourists making their pilgrimages, all the tears. Yes, DC must be an interesting place to live.
Have you picked up Robbins yet? nag nag?
Have you picked up Robbins yet? nag nag?
so i've been a little despondant lately. when this happens i fall down on my domestic duties, i.e. keeping the little box i live in clean.
so there was this fly, this gigantic goddamn fruit fly buzzing around my box for like 3 days or so. i was wondering when he was going to starve or crawl under the door or do whatever it is...
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so there was this fly, this gigantic goddamn fruit fly buzzing around my box for like 3 days or so. i was wondering when he was going to starve or crawl under the door or do whatever it is...
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smuffy:
Stupid hot. Best compliment of the day.
I named a roach living in my bf's house SAM once. You can borrow that name if you'd like. Ack. The little bugger died.
You should do yoga more. Maybe we'd see the face a little less.
I named a roach living in my bf's house SAM once. You can borrow that name if you'd like. Ack. The little bugger died.
You should do yoga more. Maybe we'd see the
face a little less.
finch:
thanks babe. you just might have made my day.
thanks babe. you just might have made my day.
this is the text from an email sent today to one of my 
ed ones regarding my bad mood yesterday and today. my fingers are all falling off from jamming it down, so its all i feel like writing today, so there.
and, i do realize the rant below is at odds with my fluffy yummy cute kids pic, but hey i'm into irony, so...
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ed ones regarding my bad mood yesterday and today. my fingers are all falling off from jamming it down, so its all i feel like writing today, so there.
and, i do realize the rant below is at odds with my fluffy yummy cute kids pic, but hey i'm into irony, so...
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thejuanupsman:
heh well i appreciate that you wouldn't hurt me too bad..
Getting old ya know, can't take a beating as well as I once did
Mostly I am an underemployed lawyer. I work in collections at my main job, make telehone authorities & foreign corps pay their bills... sucks, didnt need the JD to do it either, my boss(es) tend to look at it as a nice but not really needed bonus, a little expertise now & then that I can provide but..
really doesnt affect my job much.. although I am the semi-permanent laison to the legal folks in New Jersey.
The work I care about and the only thing that really keeps me going is the pro bono stuff. I do a lot of guardian ad litem work and occassionaly represent a child who is near majority without appointment by the court. I have also done some suits against neglectful/abusive parents by children who have just reached or recently reached majority, seeking monetary compensation. Tricky area and rare to get much but for many of them it is really about the vindication. Make the bastards pay one way or the other...
most of my legal work, however, has been kind of free lance. A guy I went to law school with worked for a high powered DC firm, he worked way too hard and often needed help with the overflow, the harder he worked the more they gave him. anyway he started giving my name out to the slacker/loser schmoozing corp guys he would meet who talked the talk but cant do the work. I mostly research and write for assholes who are too incompetent to do it themselves. Kind of sad actually I dont think i write all that well but better than them cuz man do some of these guys suck, anyway for them I have done almost everything except the very specialized areas like Intellectual Property or.... heh that is probably the big one. I recently helped a friend and his partner when they were starting a new firim, but they weren't making enough money to keep me on. That is pretty much what we expected, so I am ok with it, still hoping long term they may have something for me.
The most frustrating thing is I cant take any credit for a lot of the work I do, so I cant use it to get any other positions, but probably for the best, I dont have the big firm look or attitude.
heh this is probably more thab you wanted to know, but I rarely vent about this subject, so i guess the floodgates started to open.
Late night talks with delusion started out as a result of our mutual insomnia, but I will confess I often stay on long after I could sleep because she is so fucking cool. Besides doesn't take much rest to do my mind numbing job so 1-2 hours is plenty
Getting old ya know, can't take a beating as well as I once did
Mostly I am an underemployed lawyer. I work in collections at my main job, make telehone authorities & foreign corps pay their bills... sucks, didnt need the JD to do it either, my boss(es) tend to look at it as a nice but not really needed bonus, a little expertise now & then that I can provide but..
really doesnt affect my job much.. although I am the semi-permanent laison to the legal folks in New Jersey.
The work I care about and the only thing that really keeps me going is the pro bono stuff. I do a lot of guardian ad litem work and occassionaly represent a child who is near majority without appointment by the court. I have also done some suits against neglectful/abusive parents by children who have just reached or recently reached majority, seeking monetary compensation. Tricky area and rare to get much but for many of them it is really about the vindication. Make the bastards pay one way or the other...
most of my legal work, however, has been kind of free lance. A guy I went to law school with worked for a high powered DC firm, he worked way too hard and often needed help with the overflow, the harder he worked the more they gave him. anyway he started giving my name out to the slacker/loser schmoozing corp guys he would meet who talked the talk but cant do the work. I mostly research and write for assholes who are too incompetent to do it themselves. Kind of sad actually I dont think i write all that well but better than them cuz man do some of these guys suck, anyway for them I have done almost everything except the very specialized areas like Intellectual Property or.... heh that is probably the big one. I recently helped a friend and his partner when they were starting a new firim, but they weren't making enough money to keep me on. That is pretty much what we expected, so I am ok with it, still hoping long term they may have something for me.
The most frustrating thing is I cant take any credit for a lot of the work I do, so I cant use it to get any other positions, but probably for the best, I dont have the big firm look or attitude.
heh this is probably more thab you wanted to know, but I rarely vent about this subject, so i guess the floodgates started to open.
Late night talks with delusion started out as a result of our mutual insomnia, but I will confess I often stay on long after I could sleep because she is so fucking cool. Besides doesn't take much rest to do my mind numbing job so 1-2 hours is plenty
finch:
pssssst....it's super fucking hot here right now, so i'm wearing my sundress. just thought i'd share
bad day.
i want to break things.
including myself.
because that's what you do for things that are hopeless and useless and lost.
funny how you can be so up one day and be just pure fucked the next.
-pb
whatthefuckever
i want to break things.
including myself.
because that's what you do for things that are hopeless and useless and lost.
funny how you can be so up one day and be just pure fucked the next.
-pb
whatthefuckever
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delusion:
wow thats exactly how i feel. the need to destroy something has apparently taken over and i have begun to destroy relationships without realizing it. fuck me, i suck. anyway, who are you trying to seduce with the new profile pic? cause whoever it was supposed to be, im quite sure it worked. it is soooo cute. loves it. anyhow, thanks for reading my ish. havent heard from you in a few days. how was the trip? need to talk to you actually, i'll email you in a bit. hope you didnt break anything that you like too much.
narcissus:
We must have been on the same wavelength yesterday.
**hiccup**
i had such a guys out weekend its almost sickening, but not quite. i couldn't find our campsite from last nite with a gps reciever and a helicopter. we had to camp on the side of a hill or something because we ran outta daylight whilst bushwacking for a trail which was on the map, but the map was from 1983
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i had such a guys out weekend its almost sickening, but not quite. i couldn't find our campsite from last nite with a gps reciever and a helicopter. we had to camp on the side of a hill or something because we ran outta daylight whilst bushwacking for a trail which was on the map, but the map was from 1983
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_bossanova_:
I love boys so much.
That sounds like a fun weekend, and an even better way to recover.
That sounds like a fun weekend, and an even better way to recover.
finch:
exactly. yep. hehe
exactly. yep. hehe
this weekend i will spend atop a mountain far far away from this place of pensive ants and run run running in place and never going anywhere. sometimes the city is like lead in my veins, weighing me down with its incessant chatter and constant bids for my attention and money.
so i decree it. so it shall be.
pics of my out of shape...
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so i decree it. so it shall be.
pics of my out of shape...
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finch:
^--- moron. huge moron.
^---does that make up for it?
^---does that make up for it?
delusion:
yay. it makes me a happy girl i must say. not the most profitable piece i've ever publilshed but just as excited each and everytime. everything good over there sweet?
EDIT: am thursday. how can i sleep for 8 hours and wake to feeling like i've been running running running all night long? run run run, little mouse, you'll never catch that cheese. my jaw aches. i'm grinding my teeth to dust in my dreams and reality. so much and yet nothing going on at once. when did life become so desparately dehydrated and devoid...
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narcissus:
I've never tried melatonin, but klonopin sure does the trick!
finch:
well...ummm... we're not exactly a couple. i mean, all the people in that thread are dating, y'know? lotsof them are doing the whole long distance thing.
but, i don't care. you can post them there if you want to. i have no objections.
but, i don't care. you can post them there if you want to. i have no objections.
from the pb archives; sent via email for cyber seduction a few years back. edited and updated.
(s)
i want you to sit and revel in the delicious soreness of your inner thighs
bruised wrists
and small bite marks on the back
-----of your neck
-----you smile
to yourself
with sinful satisfaction
and sweet exhaustion
....as you remember...
-----my hard wet body
covering yours
pinning...
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archives; sent via email for cyber seduction a few years back. edited and updated.
(s)
i want you to sit and revel in the delicious soreness of your inner thighs
bruised wrists
and small bite marks on the back
-----of your neck
-----you smile
to yourself
with sinful satisfaction
and sweet exhaustion
....as you remember...
-----my hard wet body
covering yours
pinning...
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finch:
me too, babe. me too.
zephyra:
Nope. Better in the orginal version.
cull, dull, null. Tull.
yes, Tull is a word. it was the name of a town in "The Gunslinger" by Stephen King. there were some people in this monosyllabic town. a few dozen. they were magicked by the Man in Black. they tried to hurt the gunslinger. they tried to kill the gunslinger. they tried. they tried and they died.
the gunslinger, Roland, will kick...
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yes, Tull is a word. it was the name of a town in "The Gunslinger" by Stephen King. there were some people in this monosyllabic town. a few dozen. they were magicked by the Man in Black. they tried to hurt the gunslinger. they tried to kill the gunslinger. they tried. they tried and they died.
the gunslinger, Roland, will kick...
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delusion:
my moniker is delusion, is it not? i have mastered the fine art of escapism. email awaits you, when you get time.
mnislahi:
Vanessa Daou.. i dont know her!!
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maurauder:
Well, I leave for one week...
You and Plaingurl!?!? Whatever did I miss?
I've been meaning to email you. It's slowly composing itself in my head. But theres been a lot of distraction up there lately. And the beer bubbles tickle the thoughts and make them squirm.
Missed you.
You and Plaingurl!?!?
Whatever did I miss?
I've been meaning to email you. It's slowly composing itself in my head. But theres been a lot of distraction up there lately. And the beer bubbles tickle the thoughts and make them squirm.
Missed you.
zephyra:
Hey, I'm gonna kick you. You haven't answered my e-mails today. I need to know about sleeping pills.
I need to know about sleeping pills.
i have a visitor coming wednesday....