pb

this needs an update, but i have no updatable material so i'll just leave you with what i'm currently playing in the background as i frag ppl in Halo.


streaming audio


spank ya later.




-pb

1 Oct 04

begin month of awesomness. cool(er) weather, fire on the trees, halloween, pumpkins and naked girls.

err, well maybe the first four, the fifth being an added plus.

halfway thru sick leave. slept late, ate some coccoa pebbles, took a long hot steaming bath, took some pics of said long hot steaming bath, took a nap while blasting type o negtive in headphones...
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update:

alive. in lots and lots of pain. percocet is my friend.

-t



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tomorrow morning i shall go under the knife, the nice man in the mask and crow's feet eyes having drawn me under with his funny gas and quiet, canned assurances. i'll lie on my back, artficial air forced into my lungs while dreams of the forever black nothing swirl inside my...
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tomorrow morning i shall go under the knife, the nice man in the mask and crow's feet eyes having drawn me under with his funny gas and quiet, canned assurances. i'll lie on my back, artficial air forced into my lungs while dreams of the forever black nothing swirl inside my skull.

there'll be that moment of panic, that possible last glimpse of light and...
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i'm taking a bit of a break from SG for awhile. i'll be back later as my membership is paid up for months to come. i can still be reached via email. thanks to all those leaving me messages over the last few days. i just haven't the time or energy to pour into the site like before, at least not at the moment.

"I...
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my apologies for not being around much of late. things have been getting a little weird in my life lately.

go listen to some type o negative, it fits the coming autumn season.




-pb

like so many before me, i'll just say...


meh.





-pb


music: type o neg
book: some laurel k hamilton tripe, someone please leave me a title of a good horror, fantasy or profound book.

things are rapidly deteriorating. sg membership included.

also, if anyone has the large version of my last profile pic (the one of me flipping off the camera, not the w00t shirt pic tho) please send it to me. my machine is on the fritz and i'm trying to get it backed up before it goes south like everthing else i touch.

also, fuck the world....
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where am i?

sometimes, you know, its rather hard to tell.

i went home to TX this weekend passed. i refrained from calling one of my sure-to-get-some exes. go me.

thanks for all of the nice words about my not so nice words of prose or freeform or whatever you call it. sometimes this thing inside me beats at the bars of my ribcage and...
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tonight's deluded miseries, the first brand new, scraped from my mind---still warm and shivering. the other two old, dessicated, nearly forgotten.

headed home to TX for a few days. may not be updating, so i'll leave you with these words of misanthrope wisdom.

-pb







don't come near me with those hips, that skin, your smoooooth scent.

i hope your lithe fingertips tangle in that jet...
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