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So I'm extremely tired of being kicked when I'm down. And I'm done with all family (except my mom). I'm not going to depend on them anymore because I'm tired of being shown just how undependable they all are.

It all started after we cut off my sister in law's phone. I was tired of the late payments and her getting mad at me because I kept nagging her about paying it, so I said screw it. Ruin your own credit. Well she got mad because we cut it off while she was out of the state. (We didn't know where she was.) So she comes home, immediately leaves again, and sends James a message on Facebook saying that we need to leave the keys to her car in the mail box. The only reason he was driving her car in the first place is so I'd have a way to take Connor places and run errands while he was at work. She told him that if he didn't fill up the tank she wouldn't pay her phone bill and that if he drove it she would report it stolen, knowing that if he gets arrested for anything that he will immediately lose his job and all of the experience he's acquired in the last couple of months would be completely wasted. And knowing that this would leave me with no way to take Connor to the doctor.

So I went into the bathroom she's been using and threw everything of hers into her room. We've been waiting on her to clean it out so I could start potty training my son and she hadn't done it so I took matters into my own hands. Anything that she owned went into that room and everything of mine that she had "borrowed" was removed. This is so there is little confusion as to what belongs to who when she moves. I also found several things that went missing a while ago.

I called my mom completely upset and my sister volunteered to take me and Connor to the doctor. Well I went over there Sunday to spend some time with them because I've been a rotten daughter lately. As soon as I get there everyone is like "Why are you here?" Excuse me? I felt so unwelcome. Then my sister starts complaining about how she has to get up early to take me to the doctor's office! So I told her to forget it. I don't want to make anyone do something they don't want to do. I'm not going to force anyone to help me.

Well James aunt was nice enough to offer to take him to work so I wouldn't have to get Connor up 3 hours before the appointment. And she actually followed through (which was a total surprise since she generally hates us).

The doctor's office was a total nightmare. Connor knew where he was and he freaked out the whole time. I was exhausted and frustrated so listening to him scream throughout a simple examination was pure torture. Thank goodness he doesn't have to go back for a year.

My best friend is home from Texas! I'm so happy to see her and her son! We went out for lunch Tuesday. It was so great.

Then yesterday I realized that I lost my wallet. I don't know where it went. It just disappeared out of my purse. I had it when I came home but we've turned the entire house upside down and found nothing. So I spent most of the day yesterday calling various credit card companies and the bank to replace all of my cards. Of course I would lose it the day before I'm supposed to go pay bill and get groceries. I'm completely dependent on James' debit card until mine comes in.

Things weren't all bad though. I went with my mom to see Larry Crowne and we went to get margaritas. I LOVE margaritas. And the movie was pretty good. The music was awesome!

And I cleaned my house from top to bottom. I swept enough dog fur out of the carpet to make another entire dog. Luckily I love them, regardless of how much they shed. They love me unconditionally. It doesn't matter what I'm wearing, how I'm feeling, what kind of mood I'm in; they are always there ready to lay down next to me and just love me.

This song has basically carried me through this week:



Hopefully this weekend will be better. My sister in law comes back, but I'm supposed to be spending the whole weekend with my bestie. I'm taking her to see Harry Potter for her birthday (and I must say I'm completely geeking out about it! ) and we're going dancing with a big group of people on Saturday. Yay for liquor and dancing! Then Sunday I'm just going to veg out and do nothing.

I've got to go today to replace my license and Connor's social security card. I'm so mad about that. Luckily everything was relatively easy to replace.

Big Thanks go out to Kurosune for being super awesome and letting me gnaw her ear off about my troubles and to everyone who sent me hugs! I needed them! Every last one made me feel wonderful!

And Shema I swear that picture is coming. I had it on my memory card, but it was in my lost wallet so I've got to retake it. Don't give up on me!

Love you guys!