Moving on and time to change its always one of the most painful things. Thats what I need to do right now move on and change I can adapt theres no worries in my mind, just I dunno I guess I need to be patient on the unemployment thing and soon I shall have a job I guess. I just feel helpless as hell right now, espacially since every other problem in my life I've faced down. Lets see
1. My Fear of heights-faced it down buried it
2. My mental block after my car accident-faced it down buried it now drive better than ever.
3. Problems with ex's-faced them and am now on good terms with most of them.
4. Idiots at work making things unpleasant-again faced them overcame them
Anyways you get the point, right now I feel mentally 8 years old and very walled in. The main problem is I've told everyone that doubted me and put me down fuck you and did it my way and it all turned out alright, but now I'm starting to doubt a bit maybe I should conform more to whatever the fucking standard is these days. Arggghhh anyways getting back to the main problem after telling everyone to piss off and that I want to make it no matter I'm worried I'm gonna fall flat on my face and I'm not worried about that there will be no one there to brush me off I'm worried about that their will be if that makes any sense.
1. My Fear of heights-faced it down buried it
2. My mental block after my car accident-faced it down buried it now drive better than ever.
3. Problems with ex's-faced them and am now on good terms with most of them.
4. Idiots at work making things unpleasant-again faced them overcame them
Anyways you get the point, right now I feel mentally 8 years old and very walled in. The main problem is I've told everyone that doubted me and put me down fuck you and did it my way and it all turned out alright, but now I'm starting to doubt a bit maybe I should conform more to whatever the fucking standard is these days. Arggghhh anyways getting back to the main problem after telling everyone to piss off and that I want to make it no matter I'm worried I'm gonna fall flat on my face and I'm not worried about that there will be no one there to brush me off I'm worried about that their will be if that makes any sense.
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bluefreak:
change is a good thing and it is definatly needed for me but cant do anything cuz im stuck here in this fucking shit hole called Wisconsin. i want to fucking get out of here...im begging you someone come and fucking get me the fuck out of here before i fuck myself up again and then disappear and end up in a hospital again.
mistersatan:
Christ, I SO would.