Well Just got back to Italy from Training in Germany. That was a waste of My two weeks. I did absolute nothing there. I was shamming so bad, that i was getting sick of shamming, but anyways i so hate the holidays. This worst time of the year for me. The only thing i think about during christmas is that my brother is dead and i will never see him again. Its been 14 years and 2 days since he's past away. I remember that night so clear even though I was 11 and it was 14 years ago. 7 fuckn days before christmas. That is some bullshit. You know what makes this month so much better though. That i found out my sister has cancer again 3 days ago. I swear everything around me has bad luck. So yeah i hate the holidays. 