pantsonfire

so this weekend my job takes me to six flags great america down in chicagoland. it'll be an easy gig, plus we get to do the park for free all day sunday, and saturday night if we feel like it. my employee/friend ryan got a new job, so this might be my last trip with him for awhile.

i made gnocci & red sauce last night. it was fucking great! (even though the sauce was from a jar) i'm too lazy to cook most of the time these days but i'm glad i did last night. it was just what i needed to eat. oh, and the garlic bread was something else!

i've been trying to buy doc martens for like 2 weeks and i can't find my size!! what the fuck?

so i'm gonna post some song lyics here, if only just to pad out this rather light journal entry:

how to say it, when it won't come
i'm not trying to be vague
but silent anyway - confusion
with a smile and a sigh and glad for a friend though they rarely know it matters.
it matters.
if it don't come, the tears still do
if the smile's not there they could turn away
if no love shows there may be none received
always needing help, never do enough for anyone
can't do enough, never strong enough for myself
it should work but mistakes take over
bad outweighs good
hardly believing it never accepting it
so dissapointed
and glad for a friend though they rarely know it matters

-fIREHOSE "it matters"
from album Ragin' Full On (1986)

i just picked that out by random.