Sociable sociopaths from spaces between grass, wish i had a match for the haystack in the back, light it on fire and let the whole world know where it's at, i just found it myself, the desire to help, the meanings i've felt, start to turn real.
i haven't even started yet. the energy i have storing, generating more and more, thoughts, feelings, mind, body, spirit, everything is almost in unisom with one another, this time of solitude is paying off, how do i show it now, is it not ready yet, start a job on saturday, the start of my working days again, it will be different i know this, but how i have not decided, what do i want to bring to the table when i play all my cards. what is it that is so hard about thinking about the future in ways that will impact the existence of the current pretense of how life "should" be. i realize, obviously, that people have determined that the way they are doings things is right, for all practical purposes it is, nothing wrong with living life the way you see fit, however, with the energy that we have/make/are given/have, why stop at just what works, i want to go beyond the current status quo, the labels, the mentality, the hierarchies , i want to find what else there is beyond the current understanding of the general masses. is this not an idea that feels natural to human beings. because it really does feel natural to me...
