I have never been fully honest with myself. I can be painfully honest with other people. To myself, i just never cared. I always wanted to put myself out there for others. to help others with there life. neglecting my own. These past five years have been a real learning curve for me. I isolated my self, i am in a very unique position in my life and i was able to completely isolate my self, with no money, and still live life physically to the fullest. Before 5 years ago, i was not in this unique position, i was on my own in alaska, usa, living under bridges and between rescue missions. Stealing to get food and drugs. my actions were terrible, but inside, i felt love, because i was harming no one but me. That made all the difference to me. Now, in order to come up in life i will have people looking at me, possibley depending on me. There are others at risk and will be hurt if i fail. So i must not. Just don't give up. Life is not about me anymore...
