otsu

Time for a real update.

Everything is going pretty fine right now. I was very depressed these past weeks, I think I should speak to a doctor. My depressions starts when I ovulate and ends when my period begins, well, that's depressing. And of course, when my period begins, my boy starts his depression Just joking.

Still, every month I think about suicide, even though I would never do it, I used to took calls from suicidal people and tried to help them out, until I freak out because every time I got to embalm someone who died from suicide, I was very sad and constantly ask myself if I had talk with them maybe the day or the week before their deaths. That was one of the reasons I quit the mortuary business. Anyway, that just seems like a signal that I should go to the doctor even though I'm always deceived by doctors.

I had a real deep conservation with my man, and all my questions and tourments are now gone. It's amazing what words can do when they are sincere.

I'm still working on taking a good picture for my profile. It should be up by the end of the month. Because next month, I start school, again!!! I know that it'll be interesting but I can't wait to finish school once and for all. Of course, I'll continue to learn languages and learn on other subjects too, but I don't need schools for that. Education has become a real business now, and it's kinda hard to realize that I don't need to know everything.

Mostly, I'm really looking forward to finishing school so I can take the next step in my life. I'll be able to pay back all my debts, and mostly my student loan, to have a real salary, and have enough money to go on with some projects I have and that me and my man have. I'm hoping I'll be able to work near home, and at night. The streets are so beautiful when empty.

I got to hang out with Apirka last week, and to share a beer with her boyfriend, that was a real good time, and moderation truly has better taste. I'm not much of a alcohol drinker anyway.

I leave you with a important news: tomorrow is officially the start of autumn!!! Go outside and enjoy this wonderful season, just like me.!!! The colors will be spectacular, the air will be fresh and the wind just wanting to play in your hair. And after an evening of serenity, coming back home to a nice warm bed and a hot man is always great!

, Otsu.

P-S: Remember, all you need is