Something I wish I had learned earlier, is that I am an artist and if I do not paint and sell art for a living, I won't be happy. You can't try to do a job just for money and be happy. It's better to risk having lower pay but be in a field you love. And who knows. That I'm following my artistic side I keep seeing more doors opening. So I could be a successful artist. I also wish I would have trusted my instincts that I would love being a model and that I would be fine being seen naked even with my scar. I always felt like I was to be in the spot light, and the only way that will happen is if I'm doing what I love. Also to not rush life. Every part of it. Good bad hard. Is your life. And it is short. So enjoy it and take your time. Try not rush to one certain ending or goal only to find it doesn't fill you up like you thought. The art is to feel full and enjoy the adventure and adding of pieces and parts to yourself along the way. I am lime an art piece. Adding new parts that I like, erasing some mistakes that need fixed and enjoying painting and the emotions during the whole process
