Im a believer that everything in my life good and bad led me to where I am now. I have had fortunate things and unfortunate things in my life. I chose to use drugs and it went way further then I imagined it would. But I also chose to have my baby girl when I was in the middle of my addiction to help me have a purpose. And she was a blessing. If I had to really go back and change something though. It would be staying in better contact with my best friends from highschool. They were such a part of me and knew me so well. But my drug use created a gap between us. They no longer related to me and I lost them. I realize the importance of having close girlfriends now. And hope to meet some girls here that I can relate to better. I also wish I had never sold my horse. I want a horse so bad. I'm working so hard and following my dreams now so that I can be a good sober mom and have money to buy a horse again and one for my daughter and my son. I also would have tried to be kinder to my parents..... Now that I'm a parent I can't imagine having my daughter get into drugs and yell at me all the time.
