osaka

hello

today i applied to art college. university, school. whatever you call it. there was a looooong line of people waiting to hand in their portfolios. mine was number 160 -_-' and that was just the first phase of the entrance exam.
ah well. we shall see. its out of my hands now.

And that is one of the main reasons i have been super fucking stressed.
my home/family life is also very fucking stressful as none of them seem willing to acknowledge that i am a person and i am quite indignant at that. tho these days im just trying to stay out of their way as much as possible
i also had a bad week when i found out someone had been untruthful to me and it hurt me a whole fucking lot. i find it very difficult to trust people
and then my period was late 20 days. for which 20 days i was silently freaking out and being paranoid.

Happily on the 26th (which is mothers day in Poland) the period returned. best mothers day present i ever got.

i dug out my dads old mountain bike from the basement the other day and have zoomed around on it twice now. looks like its gonna be rainy all weekend so i wont be doing that. but it is very nice to ride a bike again. i think i hadnt ridden a bike longer than i hadnt been swimming. which is since i moved to poland.
i miss swimming




i put this up in the European SGs group and i shall put it here just in case too:

Chris and i are desperately looking for summer work. desperately
if any one knows of any kind of jobs or places to look for jobs i would be very grateful for your help.
this is Europe we'r talking about here, from the middle of July.
we'd be into pretty much anything (tho between you and me neither of us is suited to hard labour) but anything from picking fruit, packing fish, newspaper delivery, bar/cafe work would be super great.
and pretty much any European country too.